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My constant fear and worry
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eventually drives me
to complete insanity.
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I lose control of my mind
and decide to murder Emily.
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When I get home,
she's asleep in bed.
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I grab a butcher knife
and hack her to pieces.
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Right after I kill her,
I come back to my senses.
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I see that I've murdered
the person I love most.
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Unable to live with myself,
I decide to commit suicide.
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My constant fear and worry
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eventually drives me
to complete insanity.
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I lose control of my mind
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and decide to murder Emily.
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The philosophy.
I understand both philosophies.
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I think that the answer
is a bit more complex than that.
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I think that, um...
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Yeah.
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So then why are you here?
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To get... away
from all this existential shit,
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to get out of my head
and into my body.
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Do you feel that
you're being too cerebral?
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I told you that I'm depressed,
didn't I?
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You think I'm self-diagnosing?
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Do you think
you're self-diagnosing?
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My sister thinks I am.
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I don't know.
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- How was work with rehab?
- Fine.
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What about music, filmmaking,
your creative pursuits?
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Fine, fine. It's pretty much
everything right now.
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I have been focused
getting screenwriting work.
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Okay.
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Good. Well...
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I feel that you are depressed.
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But you don't have depression.
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I just proposed to the love
of my life. And she said yes.
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I should be happy.
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But I am crippled with fear.
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All I do day and night is worry,
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about the unknown, the what-ifs,
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convince myself of the worst.
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And, uh, it plays out
like a horror movie in my head.
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And whenever I'm able
to calm myself down,
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it's only temporary.
It always leads back to anxiety.
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I have these crazy thoughts,
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these irrational scenarios
that play out in my head.
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I mean,
it seems so fucking real.
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Like, uh, what if I get
so depressed I hurt Emily?
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Physically.
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Well, it sounds to me
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like you're presenting
mentally with OCD.
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I don't...
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clean doorknobs
or step over fucking cracks.
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I'm just... I'm just depressed.
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The depression is
just a byproduct.
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It's like... a symptom.
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OCD is an anxiety disorder.
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I don't have a mental illness.
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I'm not some
clean-freak hypochondriac. I...
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This is situational.
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That's not
the only way OCD works.
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There's a mental side to it.
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It's called "pure obsessional."
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It only works
through mental compulsions.
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So, what does that mean?
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You need to be working
with an OCD specialist.
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Here.
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I want you to call this office.
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Set up an appointment.
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What's going on,
little Looney Tune?
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Just over at my mom's.
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Her and Steve wanna
have us over
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to celebrate the engagement.
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Yeah. No, of course.
That's super sweet.
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Oh, how was therapy?
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- It was fine.
- You don't have to go into it.
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- I was just asking.
- I'll tell you more tonight.
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All right, baby.
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Have a good shift. I love you.
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I love you too.
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- Congratulations.
- Thanks, dude.
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She's so fucking excited, Coop.
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She called me crying,
she was so happy.
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Thanks, Tess. What the hell
are you doing out here?
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Oh, just another day
at Transform Malibu
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on an Easter egg hunt for
a bottle of peppermint schnapps.
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Meryl ratted Brandon out
in therapy this morning.
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Said he had it delivered
over the fence.
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- Okay. Let's go look for it.
- Will you help me?
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Doc's got all these kids
way overmedicated.
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- I know.
- It's wild.
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- We talk all the time.
- It's wild.
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- What's up, partner?
- Welcome to the Octagon.
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Jesus. What?
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Yeah. Your boy
went mental today.
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- Who?
- Who do you think?
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- Brandon?
- Bingo.
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Well, I found his delivery
in the bushes.
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Nice.
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What is it now?
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He found out
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you were leading
group riding today
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at morning check-in,
the guy lost it.
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Flipping couches, screaming.
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"You got me all fucked up."
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Sweet. That'll be fun.
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Anything else we need to know?
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Well, our favorite
heroin addicts checked back in.
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Who?
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That doesn't really
narrow it down.
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Come on. Omaha?
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Rachel?
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She's in the back,
cooling her heels.
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I thought she was doing better.
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Addiction's a bitch, man.
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They send them back--
Familiar people, familiar place.
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Relapse is inevitable.
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- Is that it?
- Just who's on meds.
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- No.
- Come on.
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- No. No, no.
- What are you talking about?
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- Uh-uh.
- Fine.
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- There they are.
- Fuck you.
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You guys, good evening.
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I'm out of here.
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- Yeah.
- Take it easy. Shaka.
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- Shaka, bro.
- Huh? Uh-huh.
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All fucked up now!
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Man, you got me up in here
like I'm some fucking lab rat!
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Man, fuck this!
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Solid therapy session?
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Speaking of rats!
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It's okay, Meryl.
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Don't say anything.
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I knew you wanted
to see us again.
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I just didn't think
it'd be this soon.
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- It's fucking embarrassing.
- No, it's not.
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I lasted, like, no time.
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It doesn't matter.
Nobody's judging you.
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I fucking let you down.
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Hey.
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Hey, look at me.
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Fuck that shit.
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That's toxic waste in your head.
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You let no one down. Hear me?
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You just helped me so much.
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You helped yourself.
We just showed you some tools.
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You're here now.
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Thanks, Coop.
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♪ Mm ♪
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♪ I miss my youthful... ♪
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Hello.
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♪ They figured a way
They'd pay you to play ♪
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♪ You've given me ♪
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♪ All of your time ♪
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♪ I miss my old-school... ♪
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♪ They always knew what to do ♪
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♪ I miss the kid
In the back of the room ♪
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- Toonzy.
- Hey, you. How you doing?
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♪ I know that I love
My Toonzy ♪
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♪ And I know my Toonz--♪
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Ooh!
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You think you're getting
in here?
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- Yeah. Why?
- On one condition.
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- You charging admission?
- Hey.
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You can't say anything
about the temperature.
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- How come?
- My shower, my rules.
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My God, I got
a parking ticket today.
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- What?
- Yeah. Yeah.
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And you know
what occurred to me?
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This thing, this genius idea
is if we move to New York City,
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we'd have to take the train,
and we wouldn't use a car.
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I'd never get a parking ticket
again. Try this.
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- Yeah?
- Mmm!
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- It's good, right?
- Mm-hm.
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I got it
at the farmers' market.
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Oh!
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- Your mom and Steve okay?
- They're fine.
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Steve's a little
under the weather,
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but, you know, same old.
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Did your mom freak out?
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Um...
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Kind of. I don't know.
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She kind of made it
about herself,
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you know, like she always does.
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I'm sorry, baby.
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Hey, listen, I was thinking
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that maybe you could finish
chopping the vegetables for me
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so I could start on the salad.
I hate chopping the vegetables.
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Yeah, sure. Yeah.
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My pleasure.
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I don't know,
maybe I'm overly sensitive to it
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because she's been like this
my whole life. You know?
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She's always been this way,
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and it's not like
she's gonna change, you know?
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Sorry, I've gotta go pee.
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It's okay.
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This is no laughing matter.
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If there'd been an accident,
I might've landed in jail.
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With your uncle
a police vice president?
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More than ever.
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I never got it licensed.
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- Should've been handed in.
- Babe.
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- Incidentally...
- Yeah.
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She diagnosed me today.
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Yeah?
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Okay.
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What did... What did she say?
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Hey.
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Hey, whatever it is,
we'll get through it.
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Does she, um...
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Does she think that your
depression is clinical or...?
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No, she thinks I have OCD.
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- OCD?
- Mm.
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- Really?
- That's what I said.
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Sorry, I don't understand.
You don't have any of those...
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tics or rituals or anything,
do you?
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Uh-uh.
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No. I don't know.
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- I don't know either.
- Okay.
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Hey.
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We've got this. Okay?
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You don't
have to go it alone or...
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- I love you.
- I love you too.
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I'm so lucky to have you.
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- Hey.
- Hey!
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- There you are.
- I'm so sorry.
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- Traffic was the worst.
- No, no, it's fine.
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- Congratulations, honey.
- Thanks, J.
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I'm so happy.
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Oh, yeah.
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- So you took the knee, mate?
- I sure did.
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Giddyap.
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Thanks, man.
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Listen, we're here to help
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with the planning.
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Whatever you guys decide.
Just know that, okay?
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I appreciate that.
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- I love you guys.
- We love you.
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And you know,
once there's a baby on the way,
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you're gonna get
a lot more help.
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Yeah, I know, I know,
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one thing at a time, but, uh,
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hey, you are family now.
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No, stop that.
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Just being alone with all this,
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that's been the hardest part,
I think.
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That has to be
really difficult for you.
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We all only save ourselves.
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Well, that's
a lonely philosophy.
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That's because it's true.
Lonely doesn't have to mean sad.
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If you like yourself.
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Touché.
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So why don't you tell me
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what you already know about OCD.
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Just what I scoured
on the Internet.
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When I started
reading articles about Pure O...
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my face dropped.
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I knew in my heart
that's what I have.
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Okay. And that's
a normal reaction, right?
260
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Just knowing
what we're up against,
261
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like, makes us feel better
about it a little bit, yeah?
262
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You haven't asked me
about my story yet.
263
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Would it help you if I did?
264
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I don't know.
265
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I thought that
that's kind of how this worked.
266
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Okay, why don't we switch it up?
267
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Why don't I tell you
what I think happened,
268
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and then you can tell me
if I'm wrong.
269
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Okay.
Okay.
270
00:17:23,129 --> 00:17:25,522
So it started with a thought.
271
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A horrible thought.
Something dreadful.
272
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Maybe you thought
that you'd harm someone.
273
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Maybe you thought
you did something horrific
274
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or were capable of it.
275
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And this thought was totally
against your self-identity,
276
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but it started to consume you.
277
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And not in a casual way,
278
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but in the most intense way
you've ever experienced.
279
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The more you tried
to push that thought away,
280
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the stronger it returned
and just became
281
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this incredible
source of anxiety.
282
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You tried to hide it
from everybody that you know...
283
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because just the thought of it
frightened you to your core.
284
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You were afraid
you'd be judged for it,
285
00:18:07,303 --> 00:18:09,697
you thought the people
who loved you no longer would,
286
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that you were vile and depraved.
287
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So you tried to bury it.
288
00:18:14,093 --> 00:18:16,269
Eventually you realized
you couldn't do that anymore,
289
00:18:16,443 --> 00:18:19,576
so you told somebody
that you were close to.
290
00:18:19,750 --> 00:18:23,189
And then it was out there,
right? It was no turning back.
291
00:18:24,712 --> 00:18:26,279
Then you got into talk therapy,
292
00:18:26,453 --> 00:18:28,716
which just
made the problem worse
293
00:18:28,890 --> 00:18:30,500
because talking about it
ad nauseam
294
00:18:30,674 --> 00:18:32,241
just made you
really hate yourself
295
00:18:32,415 --> 00:18:35,070
and destroyed
your self-confidence.
296
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How am I doing so far?
297
00:18:42,947 --> 00:18:46,255
Hey, listen, I want you to know
that I'm not doing this
298
00:18:46,429 --> 00:18:48,605
to make you feel
like a number, okay?
299
00:18:48,779 --> 00:18:51,434
I'm doing this because
the first rule of treating OCD
300
00:18:51,608 --> 00:18:54,437
is that the content
doesn't matter.
301
00:18:54,611 --> 00:18:56,744
It's completely irrelevant.
302
00:18:56,918 --> 00:19:01,009
Right? There's POCD, pedophilia.
There's HOCD, homosexuality.
303
00:19:01,183 --> 00:19:04,969
There's hit-and-run OCD,
existential OCD, harm OCD.
304
00:19:05,144 --> 00:19:08,451
There's ROCD, which is centered
around romantic relationships.
305
00:19:08,625 --> 00:19:10,323
- I mean, the list goes on.
- Well, yeah.
306
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Definitely got
those last two or three.
307
00:19:12,412 --> 00:19:13,761
And that's my point.
308
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They're all exactly the same.
309
00:19:16,981 --> 00:19:19,114
Just thoughts.
310
00:19:19,288 --> 00:19:21,769
Right?
And what I'm gonna teach you,
311
00:19:21,943 --> 00:19:23,640
and this is really important,
312
00:19:23,814 --> 00:19:26,208
is that no matter how much
your brain tries to lie to you
313
00:19:26,382 --> 00:19:28,384
and tell you that it's about
314
00:19:28,558 --> 00:19:31,909
the content of your thoughts,
it's not.
315
00:19:32,083 --> 00:19:33,694
It's about your reaction
316
00:19:33,868 --> 00:19:36,349
and your relationship
to those thoughts.
317
00:19:39,265 --> 00:19:40,179
I see.
318
00:19:41,354 --> 00:19:42,920
Things don't make us anxious.
319
00:19:43,094 --> 00:19:46,228
Anxiety is a state of mind.
Does that make sense?
320
00:19:47,360 --> 00:19:49,405
I think that you'd benefit most
321
00:19:49,579 --> 00:19:50,798
in group therapy.
322
00:19:52,321 --> 00:19:53,627
Why is that?
323
00:19:53,801 --> 00:19:55,585
Late onset is difficult.
324
00:19:55,759 --> 00:19:57,587
It creates an identity crisis.
325
00:19:57,761 --> 00:20:00,329
There's a stigma
that needs to be overcome now.
326
00:20:00,503 --> 00:20:02,201
And so I think
that the group therapy
327
00:20:02,375 --> 00:20:03,724
will mitigate this.
328
00:20:03,898 --> 00:20:05,552
And you need to be around people
329
00:20:05,726 --> 00:20:07,728
who've been managing this
for a long time.
330
00:20:07,902 --> 00:20:11,471
And then you can see that OCD
is not a death sentence.
331
00:20:11,645 --> 00:20:14,256
Sure. Whatever you think.
I already trust you.
332
00:20:14,430 --> 00:20:15,910
Listen.
333
00:20:16,084 --> 00:20:18,260
You're gonna get better,
I promise.
334
00:20:19,957 --> 00:20:22,308
In this community,
we help save each other.
335
00:20:27,226 --> 00:20:29,184
You can't even surf
on these things.
336
00:20:29,358 --> 00:20:31,534
It's not about that. It's about
getting out on the water.
337
00:20:31,708 --> 00:20:33,232
Paddleboarding is for chumps.
338
00:20:33,406 --> 00:20:35,582
- Then you should be an expert.
- Fuck you.
339
00:20:35,756 --> 00:20:36,887
Hey.
340
00:20:37,061 --> 00:20:38,237
Hey. Hey, hey, hey.
341
00:20:39,673 --> 00:20:41,675
Everybody take it easy.
Cut the shit.
342
00:20:41,849 --> 00:20:44,068
I'll take you both
to a Big Book meeting.
343
00:20:44,243 --> 00:20:45,505
No sweat, Coop.
344
00:20:45,679 --> 00:20:47,463
Just a little bit of tension
is all.
345
00:20:50,292 --> 00:20:51,685
Take a breath, Meryl.
346
00:21:01,347 --> 00:21:02,261
Hey.
347
00:21:04,524 --> 00:21:06,090
Don't let him get to you.
348
00:21:06,265 --> 00:21:08,397
Just focus
on what you can control.
349
00:21:10,530 --> 00:21:11,966
You been good this week?
350
00:21:13,446 --> 00:21:14,838
Yeah. It feels...
351
00:21:16,100 --> 00:21:17,798
better to get out of the house.
352
00:21:19,147 --> 00:21:20,409
I bet, yeah.
353
00:21:20,583 --> 00:21:22,106
Seventy-two-hour detox
is a bitch.
354
00:21:24,065 --> 00:21:26,023
No, it wasn't that bad
this time.
355
00:21:27,808 --> 00:21:29,766
Just too much time in my head.
356
00:21:31,551 --> 00:21:33,422
Well, you know what Slater says.
357
00:21:33,596 --> 00:21:35,076
"In your head, you're dead."
358
00:21:36,643 --> 00:21:37,513
Yeah.
359
00:21:43,998 --> 00:21:44,955
What?
360
00:21:47,784 --> 00:21:48,959
You were right.
361
00:21:50,178 --> 00:21:52,136
About what?
362
00:21:52,311 --> 00:21:54,313
I shouldn't have gone home.
I just...
363
00:21:55,357 --> 00:21:56,576
didn't know any better.
364
00:21:58,055 --> 00:22:00,319
I'm a little lost, you know?
365
00:22:04,366 --> 00:22:05,759
Take that all away
for a second.
366
00:22:05,933 --> 00:22:08,152
All the distractions,
all the bullshit.
367
00:22:09,676 --> 00:22:11,330
What do you wanna do?
368
00:22:11,504 --> 00:22:13,114
If you had a clean slate,
369
00:22:13,288 --> 00:22:14,724
money didn't matter,
370
00:22:14,898 --> 00:22:16,857
what your parents wanted
didn't matter?
371
00:22:19,512 --> 00:22:21,340
No one's ever
asked me that before.
372
00:22:23,559 --> 00:22:25,126
Well, what would
you like to do?
373
00:22:26,649 --> 00:22:27,781
I don't know.
374
00:22:29,478 --> 00:22:32,829
Like, um, I like fashion,
375
00:22:33,003 --> 00:22:36,311
but that's not really,
like, a job or anything.
376
00:22:36,485 --> 00:22:38,139
What? Sure it is.
377
00:22:38,313 --> 00:22:40,184
What, you think
clothes make themselves?
378
00:22:40,359 --> 00:22:42,317
No, I know,
but I'm just saying, like,
379
00:22:42,491 --> 00:22:45,320
where I come from,
it's not a job.
380
00:22:48,279 --> 00:22:49,933
Good thing you're in L.A. then.
381
00:22:54,895 --> 00:22:56,157
What, ever?
382
00:22:56,331 --> 00:22:58,420
Forever and ever.
383
00:22:58,594 --> 00:23:01,292
You don't believe me, do you?
384
00:23:01,467 --> 00:23:06,385
Well, here's auf Wiedersehen
to Joan!
385
00:23:17,308 --> 00:23:19,049
Hey. You should go to bed.
386
00:23:42,551 --> 00:23:43,987
Rodney.
387
00:23:44,161 --> 00:23:46,033
Uh, OCD lifer.
388
00:23:46,207 --> 00:23:49,384
I've been, uh, managing
this thing since I was, like, 8.
389
00:23:49,558 --> 00:23:51,255
Been through it all,
one point or another.
390
00:23:51,430 --> 00:23:54,476
So mainly HOCD in my early 20s.
391
00:23:54,650 --> 00:23:56,609
Thought I was gay.
392
00:23:56,783 --> 00:23:59,612
Uh, but ended up
in conversion therapy
393
00:23:59,786 --> 00:24:02,136
before I put it together,
so yeah.
394
00:24:02,310 --> 00:24:07,184
And I'm currently here for
a flare-up of a hit-and-run OCD.
395
00:24:07,358 --> 00:24:10,187
So every time I drive,
396
00:24:10,361 --> 00:24:14,757
I convince myself that
I cause a car accident, so...
397
00:24:14,931 --> 00:24:16,411
Yeah.
398
00:24:16,585 --> 00:24:17,673
Liz.
399
00:24:17,847 --> 00:24:19,370
Like all of us,
plenty of traits
400
00:24:19,545 --> 00:24:21,329
go back to childhood,
but I wasn't diagnosed
401
00:24:21,503 --> 00:24:23,287
until sophomore year of college.
402
00:24:23,462 --> 00:24:25,551
Before that,
I spent years in talk therapy
403
00:24:25,725 --> 00:24:28,336
just exacerbating
my compulsions.
404
00:24:28,510 --> 00:24:30,817
Since I've been diagnosed,
been through a lot of them.
405
00:24:30,991 --> 00:24:32,253
There's hit-and-run OCD,
406
00:24:32,427 --> 00:24:34,690
there's OCD surrounding
starting a fire,
407
00:24:34,864 --> 00:24:36,562
skin picking.
408
00:24:36,736 --> 00:24:38,955
I'm here because
I'm an elementary school teacher
409
00:24:39,129 --> 00:24:41,218
struggling with pedophilia OCD.
410
00:24:41,392 --> 00:24:44,134
Hey, I'm Jake.
I'm an alcoholic.
411
00:24:44,308 --> 00:24:46,528
Sorry, wrong meeting.
Just kidding.
412
00:24:46,702 --> 00:24:49,444
I've been dealing with OCD
for about 15 years.
413
00:24:49,618 --> 00:24:52,360
Combination of pure
and physical.
414
00:24:52,534 --> 00:24:56,582
Started out with contamination,
scrupulosity OCD,
415
00:24:56,756 --> 00:24:58,801
which is based in religion.
416
00:24:58,975 --> 00:25:02,283
Uh, recently, I've been dealing
with magical thinking,
417
00:25:02,457 --> 00:25:05,329
and in particular,
the irrational thought
418
00:25:05,504 --> 00:25:07,462
that if I don't perform
certain rituals
419
00:25:07,636 --> 00:25:10,073
in certain ways,
my son will die.
420
00:25:10,247 --> 00:25:13,207
So um, yeah,
it's been a lot of fun.
421
00:25:15,252 --> 00:25:16,819
Okay. Thanks, guys.
422
00:25:16,993 --> 00:25:21,563
Um, Cooper, feel free
to go in depth if you like.
423
00:25:21,737 --> 00:25:22,956
Whatever you want.
424
00:25:23,130 --> 00:25:25,785
So Cooper, obviously.
425
00:25:25,959 --> 00:25:28,352
Uh, about a year ago,
my mom got really sick.
426
00:25:28,527 --> 00:25:31,094
She has an autoimmune disease,
was in the hospital.
427
00:25:32,879 --> 00:25:35,142
My mom means a lot to me.
428
00:25:35,316 --> 00:25:37,666
My father left to start
a new family when I was young,
429
00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:39,146
so she raised me.
430
00:25:39,320 --> 00:25:41,191
Anyway, things got
really bad for her,
431
00:25:41,365 --> 00:25:44,717
to the point that I had to book
my travel plans to say goodbye.
432
00:25:44,891 --> 00:25:46,632
And that same week,
I lost my job.
433
00:25:46,806 --> 00:25:49,722
Production on a film
I wrote fell apart.
434
00:25:49,896 --> 00:25:51,506
Point is, I shut down.
435
00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:53,682
I didn't know
how to handle it all.
436
00:25:53,856 --> 00:25:55,379
And I had the thought
cross my mind
437
00:25:55,554 --> 00:25:57,033
for the first time in my life
438
00:25:57,207 --> 00:25:59,906
that maybe it would be easier
to just give up.
439
00:26:03,213 --> 00:26:05,041
My mom ended up
making a full recovery,
440
00:26:05,215 --> 00:26:06,869
but for the next
five or six months,
441
00:26:07,043 --> 00:26:09,655
I became consumed with anxiety,
thinking I was suicidal.
442
00:26:09,829 --> 00:26:11,570
But I didn't say anything
to anybody.
443
00:26:11,744 --> 00:26:12,919
I kept it all inside.
444
00:26:14,094 --> 00:26:15,486
It was a fucking nightmare.
445
00:26:15,661 --> 00:26:17,793
There was nothing I could do
to stop it.
446
00:26:19,621 --> 00:26:21,405
And around that point,
I had the thought
447
00:26:21,580 --> 00:26:23,364
that what if
instead of harming myself,
448
00:26:23,538 --> 00:26:25,105
I harmed my girlfriend?
449
00:26:25,279 --> 00:26:27,411
Uh-huh.
450
00:26:27,586 --> 00:26:29,239
It's morphing.
451
00:26:29,413 --> 00:26:30,893
What?
452
00:26:31,067 --> 00:26:32,634
That's what it means
when the OCD jumps from
453
00:26:32,808 --> 00:26:35,071
- one obsession to the next.
- Yeah.
454
00:26:35,245 --> 00:26:37,030
Okay, okay,
so I guess it morphed.
455
00:26:37,204 --> 00:26:38,553
As hard as things already were,
456
00:26:38,727 --> 00:26:40,294
that's when it started
to eat me up.
457
00:26:40,468 --> 00:26:42,905
I was able to rationalize
if I ended up hurting myself
458
00:26:43,079 --> 00:26:45,038
once it became about...
459
00:26:45,212 --> 00:26:46,735
the woman that I love.
460
00:26:49,651 --> 00:26:51,131
Even then, kept it all hid.
461
00:26:52,872 --> 00:26:55,048
Until one day we were leaving
this grocery store
462
00:26:55,222 --> 00:26:56,789
and I walked by this little...
463
00:27:00,880 --> 00:27:02,403
kid, this little boy.
464
00:27:04,753 --> 00:27:05,754
And I had--
465
00:27:07,582 --> 00:27:09,149
The image flashed across my mind
466
00:27:09,323 --> 00:27:11,151
of me stabbing the boy
in the face.
467
00:27:17,505 --> 00:27:18,854
You're in a safe space.
468
00:27:20,900 --> 00:27:22,075
Hmm...
469
00:27:24,294 --> 00:27:25,295
I'm sorry.
470
00:27:29,778 --> 00:27:32,476
We left the store, and I just
collapsed into my girl's arms.
471
00:27:32,651 --> 00:27:34,000
I told her everything.
472
00:27:37,220 --> 00:27:38,831
Got into talk therapy.
473
00:27:41,790 --> 00:27:43,096
You guys know the rest.
474
00:27:44,924 --> 00:27:47,056
She's been great, my girlfriend.
475
00:27:47,230 --> 00:27:48,884
She's--Fiancée, actually.
476
00:27:49,058 --> 00:27:50,581
We just got married.
We just got engaged.
477
00:27:50,756 --> 00:27:52,105
Sorry.
478
00:27:52,279 --> 00:27:54,760
- Congratulations.
- Yeah. Congrats, man. Ah!
479
00:27:54,934 --> 00:27:56,457
Thanks, thanks. Thanks, guys.
480
00:27:56,631 --> 00:27:58,807
Um, that's the thing, though.
481
00:27:58,981 --> 00:28:00,896
Now I've been struggling
with relationship OCD,
482
00:28:01,070 --> 00:28:02,985
picking everything apart.
483
00:28:03,159 --> 00:28:06,075
Wanting it to be perfect
before we get married.
484
00:28:06,249 --> 00:28:09,122
I've also developed
pretty severe health OCD,
485
00:28:09,296 --> 00:28:10,993
thinking I have cancer
for no reason.
486
00:28:11,167 --> 00:28:12,908
We are all perfectionists.
487
00:28:13,082 --> 00:28:15,258
That thing just comes
with the territory.
488
00:28:15,432 --> 00:28:18,740
- Well, thank you, Cooper.
- Yeah. Yeah, thanks, man.
489
00:28:18,914 --> 00:28:21,830
We've all been in
your position before. All right?
490
00:28:22,004 --> 00:28:24,050
So just big steps, bro,
all right?
491
00:28:25,268 --> 00:28:26,705
You're in the right place.
492
00:29:01,087 --> 00:29:02,392
How did the group go?
493
00:29:03,480 --> 00:29:04,568
Still going.
494
00:29:07,049 --> 00:29:07,920
Wanna smoke?
495
00:29:10,444 --> 00:29:15,841
I have this disconnect
where I think how I should feel.
496
00:29:16,015 --> 00:29:17,277
Yeah, but if you take
497
00:29:17,451 --> 00:29:19,018
an analytical approach
all the time,
498
00:29:19,192 --> 00:29:21,150
you're bound to see the world
through a gray lens.
499
00:29:21,324 --> 00:29:24,284
But it's like
the numbers tell you so.
500
00:29:24,458 --> 00:29:26,939
Heartbreak is just
the law of averages.
501
00:29:27,113 --> 00:29:28,549
The numbers are insignificant
502
00:29:28,723 --> 00:29:29,942
unless you can decipher
503
00:29:30,116 --> 00:29:31,944
how they affect something
as a whole.
504
00:29:33,684 --> 00:29:34,990
I don't understand that.
505
00:29:36,209 --> 00:29:37,863
I'm saying love is a choice.
506
00:29:38,037 --> 00:29:40,169
Hope is a choice.
507
00:29:40,343 --> 00:29:42,171
You just said
you're in love with her.
508
00:29:42,345 --> 00:29:43,607
I am.
509
00:29:43,782 --> 00:29:45,305
Em is a great girl, dude.
510
00:29:45,479 --> 00:29:48,047
You think you're the first guy
to ever spin out?
511
00:29:48,221 --> 00:29:50,484
But what if that's
all a relationship is?
512
00:29:50,658 --> 00:29:53,139
Shit that you have
to constantly overcome.
513
00:29:53,313 --> 00:29:55,881
We're talking about love.
514
00:29:56,055 --> 00:29:58,274
It's not
a permanent state of bliss.
515
00:30:01,364 --> 00:30:03,192
Look.
516
00:30:03,366 --> 00:30:06,543
I don't mean to get
all hippie and shit, but...
517
00:30:08,807 --> 00:30:10,896
you gotta find joy
in the journey.
518
00:30:17,424 --> 00:30:19,426
What are you doing here, man?
519
00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:21,341
What do you mean?
520
00:30:21,515 --> 00:30:23,604
What are you doing
at this rehab?
521
00:30:23,778 --> 00:30:25,432
I went to college with Tess.
522
00:30:26,825 --> 00:30:28,348
She thought
I'd be good at this.
523
00:30:28,522 --> 00:30:30,959
No, I know all that.
That's not what I mean.
524
00:30:31,133 --> 00:30:33,440
What are you doing
in this rehab?
525
00:30:36,051 --> 00:30:37,270
I don't follow.
526
00:30:38,619 --> 00:30:42,101
Everybody here has to be here.
527
00:30:42,275 --> 00:30:44,103
The clients,
they're at rock bottom.
528
00:30:44,277 --> 00:30:47,193
I'm here because I'm sober.
It's part of my program.
529
00:30:47,367 --> 00:30:48,803
Slater, sober.
530
00:30:48,977 --> 00:30:50,849
Tess lost her sister
to addiction.
531
00:30:52,415 --> 00:30:55,331
Nobody ends up at rehab
unless they have to.
532
00:31:00,206 --> 00:31:01,250
I don't know.
533
00:31:18,789 --> 00:31:21,227
Why are you still so resentful
about that?
534
00:31:21,401 --> 00:31:23,969
Because I apologized,
I was sincere, and you accepted.
535
00:31:24,143 --> 00:31:26,667
I'm figuring this thing out.
I overthink, I obsess.
536
00:31:26,841 --> 00:31:29,017
That doesn't give you an excuse
to be an asshole.
537
00:31:29,191 --> 00:31:31,280
- That's not fair.
- Know how hard it's been for me
538
00:31:31,454 --> 00:31:33,239
to have a fiancé
who's having doubts
539
00:31:33,413 --> 00:31:35,284
but he's telling me,
"They're not really doubts.
540
00:31:35,458 --> 00:31:38,200
- So just be cool. Help me."
- I have to filter out
541
00:31:38,374 --> 00:31:40,115
every thought that passes
through my head.
542
00:31:40,289 --> 00:31:42,465
Do you know
how exhausting that is?
543
00:31:42,639 --> 00:31:44,119
Imagine trying to fix your mind,
544
00:31:44,293 --> 00:31:47,340
but can't trust
the mind that's fixing it.
545
00:31:47,514 --> 00:31:49,298
I'm gonna slip up,
I'm gonna fuck up.
546
00:31:49,472 --> 00:31:51,648
And I'm gonna let things through
that are not real.
547
00:31:51,822 --> 00:31:53,302
It's just my anxiety talking.
548
00:31:53,476 --> 00:31:55,261
But I won't know that
until after the fact.
549
00:31:55,435 --> 00:31:57,959
Right, but if you don't know it,
how am I supposed to know it?
550
00:31:58,133 --> 00:31:59,743
You have to trust that deep down
551
00:31:59,918 --> 00:32:02,181
- it's not how I really feel.
- Oh, I'm trying.
552
00:32:05,793 --> 00:32:08,187
Look, you can lean on me.
Right?
553
00:32:08,361 --> 00:32:11,451
I'm here for you. I've been here
for you the whole time.
554
00:32:11,625 --> 00:32:13,192
I know you have.
555
00:32:13,366 --> 00:32:16,195
It's just hard when talking
about it makes it worse.
556
00:32:16,369 --> 00:32:18,371
I can't tell other people I love
what I'm going through
557
00:32:18,545 --> 00:32:20,329
because they'll just get
so concerned.
558
00:32:20,503 --> 00:32:21,896
And that makes it harder.
559
00:32:27,206 --> 00:32:30,818
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry about your family. I--
560
00:32:32,559 --> 00:32:34,735
Babe, I just think
you're spun out.
561
00:32:34,909 --> 00:32:37,172
I--It's not gonna last forever.
562
00:32:37,346 --> 00:32:39,131
It doesn't feel that way
right now.
563
00:32:48,923 --> 00:32:51,056
I'm here for you.
564
00:32:51,230 --> 00:32:53,406
I really... I really am,
565
00:32:53,580 --> 00:32:56,409
but our relationship
doesn't get to go on hold.
566
00:32:56,583 --> 00:32:58,280
Right? I need you to show up.
567
00:32:58,454 --> 00:33:01,022
And I need to be able
to express how I feel.
568
00:33:03,242 --> 00:33:04,678
You don't feel that you can?
569
00:33:06,027 --> 00:33:08,725
Honestly, right now, no.
570
00:33:09,944 --> 00:33:11,511
No. I feel like
571
00:33:11,685 --> 00:33:13,121
I have to take a back seat.
572
00:33:14,818 --> 00:33:17,473
- Well, I don't want that.
- Okay.
573
00:33:23,610 --> 00:33:24,567
So tell me.
574
00:33:25,916 --> 00:33:27,570
Go ahead. Whatever it is.
575
00:33:34,751 --> 00:33:37,015
I feel like this engagement
is bullshit.
576
00:33:38,625 --> 00:33:40,496
Like, it doesn't feel real.
577
00:33:47,938 --> 00:33:49,201
Well, I mean it.
578
00:33:51,029 --> 00:33:52,117
Very much.
579
00:33:54,684 --> 00:33:55,903
And I love you.
580
00:33:58,993 --> 00:33:59,950
Okay.
581
00:34:01,909 --> 00:34:03,606
- I know.
- Okay.
582
00:34:03,780 --> 00:34:05,347
And I love you too.
583
00:34:07,393 --> 00:34:08,916
- Okay.
- Okay.
584
00:34:13,225 --> 00:34:16,967
♪ I believe ♪
585
00:34:17,142 --> 00:34:21,146
♪ That you were made for me ♪
586
00:34:21,320 --> 00:34:27,065
♪ And I was made for you ♪
587
00:34:29,980 --> 00:34:33,593
♪ I believe ♪
588
00:34:33,767 --> 00:34:38,032
♪ That you were made for me ♪
589
00:34:38,206 --> 00:34:43,690
♪ And I was made for you ♪
590
00:34:46,780 --> 00:34:51,611
♪ I was made for you ♪
591
00:34:55,223 --> 00:35:00,098
♪ I was made for you ♪
592
00:35:03,623 --> 00:35:08,454
♪ I was made for you ♪
593
00:35:12,197 --> 00:35:16,723
♪ I was made for you ♪
594
00:35:20,683 --> 00:35:25,340
♪ I was made for you ♪
595
00:35:39,137 --> 00:35:40,181
Oh, yeah.
596
00:35:46,318 --> 00:35:48,102
You okay?
597
00:35:54,152 --> 00:35:55,849
Oh, shit.
598
00:35:56,023 --> 00:35:57,677
- Babe.
- What?
599
00:35:57,851 --> 00:36:00,158
I fucked up my cycle.
We shouldn't have done that.
600
00:36:02,116 --> 00:36:03,900
See?
601
00:36:04,074 --> 00:36:05,380
Okay. Well...
602
00:36:07,121 --> 00:36:10,603
I know it's not ideal,
but we can go get Plan B.
603
00:36:10,777 --> 00:36:12,387
It's a good thing
you caught it.
604
00:36:12,561 --> 00:36:14,694
I hate that I can't be
on birth control.
605
00:36:18,828 --> 00:36:21,744
The app's been working fine.
We just have to be more careful.
606
00:36:21,918 --> 00:36:23,659
Oh, we have to be more careful?
607
00:36:23,833 --> 00:36:26,532
No, really you maybe have
to be more careful.
608
00:36:29,491 --> 00:36:31,058
Hey, you should be more careful.
609
00:36:31,232 --> 00:36:33,147
You've got a little schmutz
on your face.
610
00:36:34,366 --> 00:36:36,716
Oh, you think I give a fuck?
611
00:36:36,890 --> 00:36:39,022
You think I fucking
give a shit, bro?
612
00:36:39,197 --> 00:36:41,503
I--You do. You do.
613
00:36:41,677 --> 00:36:42,983
What are you doing? No.
614
00:36:43,157 --> 00:36:44,854
What do you think
you're doing? No.
615
00:36:45,028 --> 00:36:48,554
- Where are you gonna go?
- You look like you have rabies.
616
00:36:48,728 --> 00:36:51,165
- Get away from me.
- I might have. Come here.
617
00:36:53,036 --> 00:36:54,995
We're gonna get into it
when the group gets in,
618
00:36:55,169 --> 00:36:56,779
but how was your week?
619
00:37:00,174 --> 00:37:02,132
Well, today is the day.
620
00:37:02,307 --> 00:37:04,222
Are you ready
for your first exposure?
621
00:37:04,396 --> 00:37:07,050
So excited. I still
don't even get what it is.
622
00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:09,444
So it's about
desensitization, right?
623
00:37:09,618 --> 00:37:11,577
So you're gonna write out
your intrusive thoughts
624
00:37:11,751 --> 00:37:13,796
or record them
and then play them back.
625
00:37:13,970 --> 00:37:17,322
Then you're gonna try
to allow yourself to be anxious
626
00:37:17,496 --> 00:37:19,411
without performing
any compulsions.
627
00:37:19,585 --> 00:37:21,021
That's the most important part.
628
00:37:21,195 --> 00:37:22,718
It's where
all the work gets done.
629
00:37:22,892 --> 00:37:25,765
So make myself more anxious
to be less anxious.
630
00:37:25,939 --> 00:37:27,288
Essentially, yeah. Yeah.
631
00:37:27,462 --> 00:37:29,159
Eventually I might have you
walk around
632
00:37:29,334 --> 00:37:30,552
with a pocket knife
633
00:37:30,726 --> 00:37:32,946
or go to bed with a knife
at your bedside.
634
00:37:33,120 --> 00:37:34,774
But don't--CHUCKLES]
635
00:37:34,948 --> 00:37:35,775
Don't worry.
636
00:37:35,949 --> 00:37:36,993
Don't panic.
637
00:37:37,167 --> 00:37:38,691
You got this.
638
00:37:38,865 --> 00:37:39,996
What's this?
639
00:37:40,170 --> 00:37:41,955
A book for
your friends and family.
640
00:37:42,129 --> 00:37:45,088
It's kind of like the dos and
don'ts of how to help you out.
641
00:37:45,263 --> 00:37:47,177
You should probably
give it a read too.
642
00:37:50,180 --> 00:37:51,399
- Thank you.
- Mm-hm.
643
00:38:20,602 --> 00:38:23,562
My OCD attacks my relationship.
644
00:38:26,782 --> 00:38:28,828
Makes me dissect
every aspect of it,
645
00:38:29,002 --> 00:38:30,656
Emily and I,
until I bring both of us
646
00:38:30,830 --> 00:38:32,527
to the point
of complete exhaustion
647
00:38:32,701 --> 00:38:35,269
and we decide to break up.
648
00:38:38,098 --> 00:38:39,491
After we break up, I realize
649
00:38:39,665 --> 00:38:41,797
I've made the biggest mistake
of my life.
650
00:38:45,540 --> 00:38:47,673
At that point, I...
651
00:38:47,847 --> 00:38:50,589
I try to get her back,
but it's too late.
652
00:38:52,591 --> 00:38:53,461
My...
653
00:38:55,376 --> 00:38:57,204
I fall into a deep depression.
654
00:38:59,467 --> 00:39:01,339
My obsessions spiral
out of control
655
00:39:01,513 --> 00:39:03,558
and I end up
in an insane asylum.
656
00:39:04,994 --> 00:39:06,126
All alone.
657
00:39:08,911 --> 00:39:11,174
Driven to the point
of complete insanity,
658
00:39:11,349 --> 00:39:13,481
I decide to take my own life.
659
00:39:20,532 --> 00:39:22,055
Hey. Come in.
- What's up?
660
00:39:22,229 --> 00:39:23,361
Duke said you wanted see me.
661
00:39:23,535 --> 00:39:24,449
Um...
662
00:39:25,014 --> 00:39:26,102
It's okay.
663
00:39:26,886 --> 00:39:28,061
What's up?
664
00:39:29,105 --> 00:39:30,280
Um...
665
00:39:32,108 --> 00:39:35,721
Well, you know, like,
what you were saying about me,
666
00:39:35,895 --> 00:39:37,810
like, following my dreams
and all that?
667
00:39:37,984 --> 00:39:39,246
Mm-hm.
668
00:39:39,594 --> 00:39:41,683
Well, I kind of brought it up
in therapy.
669
00:39:42,989 --> 00:39:44,730
- And?
- Um...
670
00:39:46,209 --> 00:39:47,515
I guess there's, like,
671
00:39:47,689 --> 00:39:50,388
some fashion school
called FIDM.
672
00:39:51,780 --> 00:39:55,436
And I was thinking about
maybe applying.
673
00:39:57,873 --> 00:39:58,787
What?
674
00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:03,313
Hell yeah, dude.
675
00:40:03,488 --> 00:40:05,054
- Let's go.
- Yeah.
676
00:40:05,228 --> 00:40:07,622
Um, I just don't really know
how to do it,
677
00:40:07,796 --> 00:40:09,319
so I kind of need your help.
678
00:40:10,712 --> 00:40:12,148
Of course.
679
00:40:12,322 --> 00:40:13,715
Anything.
680
00:40:13,889 --> 00:40:15,674
Um...
681
00:40:15,848 --> 00:40:18,503
Yeah, I have to, like,
write an essay,
682
00:40:18,677 --> 00:40:21,767
and then I need
a letter of recommendation.
683
00:40:21,941 --> 00:40:23,116
Okay.
684
00:40:23,290 --> 00:40:25,901
And I know
that you're a writer.
685
00:40:26,075 --> 00:40:29,078
Um, but if you didn't wanna
do that, I totally get it.
686
00:40:29,252 --> 00:40:30,732
Pssh, hey.
687
00:40:30,906 --> 00:40:32,168
I got you.
688
00:40:32,342 --> 00:40:33,735
We're gonna
crush this application.
689
00:40:33,909 --> 00:40:34,823
You hear me?
690
00:40:34,997 --> 00:40:36,651
Yeah, I just didn't, like,
691
00:40:36,825 --> 00:40:39,045
wanna tell everybody else
about it yet.
692
00:40:39,219 --> 00:40:41,526
Mm, you don't want Brandon
to shade your shine?
693
00:40:41,700 --> 00:40:43,484
Exactly.
694
00:40:43,658 --> 00:40:46,922
I won't say anything.
Your business is your business.
695
00:40:48,750 --> 00:40:50,665
- Thank you.
- Big moves.
696
00:40:51,361 --> 00:40:53,015
Hey, babe.
- Hmm?
697
00:40:53,189 --> 00:40:54,843
How much time we got?
698
00:40:58,760 --> 00:41:00,893
Five minutes max.
699
00:41:01,067 --> 00:41:03,548
Okay. Okay, I'm almost ready.
700
00:41:03,722 --> 00:41:05,419
Oh, uh, Nora gave me this book.
701
00:41:05,593 --> 00:41:08,944
It's for friends and family.
It's about how you can help.
702
00:41:09,118 --> 00:41:11,947
Oh, nice. Um, can you put it
on my nightstand?
703
00:41:13,558 --> 00:41:14,602
Sure.
704
00:41:25,091 --> 00:41:27,746
- Wow.
- Yeah?
705
00:41:31,097 --> 00:41:32,838
- You like it?
- Yeah, I like it.
706
00:41:33,012 --> 00:41:35,797
Do I look like a Bond girl?
707
00:41:35,971 --> 00:41:37,320
They'd be lucky to have you.
708
00:41:37,495 --> 00:41:39,409
Or like I'm--
Like I'm in a music video?
709
00:41:40,933 --> 00:41:42,500
- Yeah?
- Yeah, yeah.
710
00:41:42,674 --> 00:41:44,806
I mean, you know,
I can do anything in this.
711
00:41:44,980 --> 00:41:48,897
I can do my body rolls.
I can do my around the worlds.
712
00:41:49,071 --> 00:41:50,899
Whoo!
713
00:41:51,073 --> 00:41:53,598
No, but, really, you like it?
It's...
714
00:41:54,686 --> 00:41:55,948
You look beautiful.
715
00:41:58,559 --> 00:42:00,082
I do need five more minutes.
716
00:42:00,256 --> 00:42:02,737
- Just, really, a quick five.
- Baby... A quick five.
717
00:42:02,911 --> 00:42:03,999
So another 15.
718
00:42:04,173 --> 00:42:05,435
- I'm a lucky man too.
- Oh?
719
00:42:05,610 --> 00:42:07,263
- Yeah, you are.
- Yeah.
720
00:42:07,437 --> 00:42:09,614
I mean, zero argument here, right?
721
00:42:09,788 --> 00:42:11,224
- You're so modest too.
- Yeah.
722
00:42:11,398 --> 00:42:13,966
I think modesty
is one of my greatest strengths.
723
00:42:14,140 --> 00:42:18,361
Wouldn't you say? Yeah, you like
that? You like that comedy?
724
00:42:18,536 --> 00:42:20,538
- Anybody need more wine?
- Yeah.
725
00:42:20,712 --> 00:42:22,017
No. That would be it.
726
00:42:23,845 --> 00:42:24,933
Thank you.
727
00:42:25,107 --> 00:42:26,282
- Good.
- No?
728
00:42:27,849 --> 00:42:29,285
- Oh, he gave up.
- Cooper.
729
00:42:29,459 --> 00:42:30,460
Yeah?
730
00:42:30,635 --> 00:42:31,940
Give her a hand.
731
00:42:32,114 --> 00:42:33,768
That's why we keep him around.
732
00:42:33,942 --> 00:42:35,944
Yeah, he's very handy.
733
00:42:36,118 --> 00:42:38,947
Well, I'd like to make a toast.
734
00:42:40,775 --> 00:42:42,298
- Um...
- Lovely.
735
00:42:44,431 --> 00:42:46,346
We all love you.
736
00:42:47,869 --> 00:42:49,392
Who you are as people.
737
00:42:50,959 --> 00:42:52,352
Who you are together.
738
00:42:53,571 --> 00:42:54,528
Yeah.
739
00:42:54,702 --> 00:42:55,529
Just love you.
740
00:42:57,226 --> 00:42:59,402
- Oh, my sweetheart.
- Oh, here we go.
741
00:42:59,577 --> 00:43:01,753
No, no, no, stop it. Your--
742
00:43:01,927 --> 00:43:04,886
Your mother and I are
just over the moon.
743
00:43:05,060 --> 00:43:06,453
And we can't wait.
744
00:43:06,627 --> 00:43:09,674
Well, Em and I are
so glad to be here
745
00:43:09,848 --> 00:43:11,414
with each and every one of you.
746
00:43:11,589 --> 00:43:14,504
There's nobody we'd rather
be celebrating this with.
747
00:43:14,679 --> 00:43:16,811
Truly. So...
748
00:43:16,985 --> 00:43:18,160
Cheers. We love you guys.
749
00:43:18,334 --> 00:43:20,598
Love you, Mom.
750
00:43:20,772 --> 00:43:24,340
♪ One plus one, you splice me ♪
751
00:43:24,514 --> 00:43:26,560
♪ The devil's in the desert ♪
752
00:43:26,734 --> 00:43:29,737
♪ Two plus one, I splice you ♪
753
00:43:29,911 --> 00:43:31,913
♪ The devil's in the desert ♪
754
00:43:32,087 --> 00:43:34,612
♪ Two plus two, I splice them ♪
755
00:43:34,786 --> 00:43:37,049
♪ The devil's in the desert ♪
756
00:43:37,223 --> 00:43:41,749
♪ One plus one
You splice me... ♪
757
00:43:41,923 --> 00:43:44,404
Hey, hey, hey.
Stop the music. Call 911!
758
00:43:44,578 --> 00:43:46,667
Oh, dude.
759
00:43:46,841 --> 00:43:48,582
Cooper. Man, I--
760
00:43:48,756 --> 00:43:50,976
I'm really sorry, man. That's--
761
00:43:51,150 --> 00:43:53,152
Yeah, I'm sure that goes
for all of us.
762
00:43:53,326 --> 00:43:56,242
Absolutely. If it wasn't
a heart attack, what was it?
763
00:43:56,416 --> 00:43:58,287
We don't know.
764
00:43:58,461 --> 00:44:01,508
Hopefully we'll get some results
from the MRI today
765
00:44:01,682 --> 00:44:03,641
and figure out what's going on.
766
00:44:07,079 --> 00:44:09,908
But thanks, guys,
I appreciate it. It's, um...
767
00:44:11,257 --> 00:44:12,650
No. I mean, feel free
768
00:44:12,824 --> 00:44:14,826
to take the rest
of the week off if you--
769
00:44:15,000 --> 00:44:17,132
No, no, this--This helps.
770
00:44:17,306 --> 00:44:19,265
I have to show up for myself
771
00:44:19,439 --> 00:44:22,529
so I can show up
for Emily and her family.
772
00:44:22,703 --> 00:44:23,791
Okay.
773
00:44:23,965 --> 00:44:25,924
Well, I'm at least happy
774
00:44:26,098 --> 00:44:28,970
that your first exposure
is starting to wane.
775
00:44:29,144 --> 00:44:31,451
You ready to step it up?
776
00:44:32,539 --> 00:44:34,323
Ready as I'll ever be.
777
00:44:34,497 --> 00:44:37,979
Hey, what's up?
Is there any news?
778
00:44:38,153 --> 00:44:40,416
I didn't know
if you were still in therapy.
779
00:44:40,590 --> 00:44:42,027
I'm on my way home.
780
00:44:42,201 --> 00:44:43,898
- Are you driving?
- Yeah.
781
00:44:45,552 --> 00:44:47,728
Uh, we can talk
when you get here.
782
00:44:47,902 --> 00:44:50,035
Okay. Sure.
783
00:44:50,209 --> 00:44:51,906
They don't think
it's the years he smoked.
784
00:44:52,080 --> 00:44:54,213
- So, what then?
- He got cobalt treatment
785
00:44:54,387 --> 00:44:55,823
in the '80s,
and apparently, back then,
786
00:44:55,997 --> 00:44:57,738
they did radiation
from the neck down,
787
00:44:57,912 --> 00:45:00,654
so that could be it.
Jesus.
788
00:45:02,308 --> 00:45:05,311
- When can he come home?
- Uh, later today.
789
00:45:05,615 --> 00:45:07,139
Yeah. Mom's there now.
790
00:45:07,313 --> 00:45:08,836
I can come too.
I'll call work off.
791
00:45:09,010 --> 00:45:10,098
- No, no.
- Are you sure?
792
00:45:10,272 --> 00:45:11,491
- Yeah.
- I wanna help.
793
00:45:11,665 --> 00:45:13,580
I know. There's gonna be
time for that.
794
00:45:13,754 --> 00:45:14,755
I think I should just go.
795
00:45:14,929 --> 00:45:16,148
- Okay.
- Okay.
796
00:45:16,322 --> 00:45:17,366
Just let me know.
797
00:45:17,540 --> 00:45:19,673
I wanna help. I'm here. Okay?
798
00:45:28,813 --> 00:45:29,944
I'm okay.
799
00:45:54,012 --> 00:45:54,882
Fuck it.
800
00:46:00,845 --> 00:46:01,889
Hey.
801
00:46:03,935 --> 00:46:05,458
Where are you going?
802
00:46:05,632 --> 00:46:07,416
What the hell is going on?
803
00:46:07,590 --> 00:46:09,897
She made a rap video with her
drug dealer when she was home.
804
00:46:10,071 --> 00:46:11,681
She's all drugged out
and naked in it,
805
00:46:11,856 --> 00:46:13,248
making out with another girl.
806
00:46:13,422 --> 00:46:15,511
She doesn't remember it,
but it got put online,
807
00:46:15,685 --> 00:46:17,122
- and her father saw it.
- Oh, fuck.
808
00:46:17,296 --> 00:46:18,776
Yeah.
809
00:46:18,950 --> 00:46:21,213
I can't stay late today.
I gotta get to class.
810
00:46:21,387 --> 00:46:24,694
- It's okay. I'll do it. Yeah.
- Thanks. I owe you one.
811
00:46:42,712 --> 00:46:43,670
Hi.
812
00:46:56,770 --> 00:46:58,728
- Do you wanna hear something?
- Sure.
813
00:47:00,295 --> 00:47:02,036
One time I paid 5 bucks
814
00:47:02,210 --> 00:47:04,430
to lick the used spoon
of a junkie.
815
00:47:07,041 --> 00:47:08,521
That must have been a low.
816
00:47:08,695 --> 00:47:11,741
Well, it definitely wasn't
a high.
817
00:47:11,916 --> 00:47:13,265
I guess, technically, it was.
818
00:47:20,707 --> 00:47:23,057
Dude, my fucking dad
saw that video.
819
00:47:25,190 --> 00:47:26,669
Yeah. He did.
820
00:47:30,543 --> 00:47:33,241
He told me he never
wants to speak to me again.
821
00:47:38,072 --> 00:47:39,595
He just needs time.
822
00:47:39,769 --> 00:47:41,989
He's processing things,
like you are.
823
00:47:44,252 --> 00:47:45,384
Yeah, I know.
824
00:47:47,081 --> 00:47:49,127
We can't control
other people's emotions.
825
00:47:49,301 --> 00:47:50,911
You can try.
826
00:47:51,085 --> 00:47:53,044
It's a quick path
to depression.
827
00:47:54,480 --> 00:47:56,612
Well, I'm already depressed,
828
00:47:56,786 --> 00:47:58,876
so fuck it.
What's one more thing, right?
829
00:48:01,182 --> 00:48:02,270
I get it. I know.
830
00:48:03,619 --> 00:48:05,752
You have to fix yourself
831
00:48:05,926 --> 00:48:07,536
right now.
832
00:48:07,710 --> 00:48:09,887
All the demolition cleanup
from your past...
833
00:48:11,801 --> 00:48:12,933
that's for later.
834
00:48:14,761 --> 00:48:16,458
Yay. Can't wait.
835
00:48:26,599 --> 00:48:28,340
You ready to go back in there?
836
00:48:29,428 --> 00:48:31,212
Um...
837
00:48:31,386 --> 00:48:32,779
just a few more minutes.
838
00:48:32,953 --> 00:48:33,998
Sure.
839
00:48:45,705 --> 00:48:47,750
Sometimes it's...
840
00:48:47,925 --> 00:48:51,145
hardest to talk to the people
you're closest to, isn't it?
841
00:48:54,366 --> 00:48:55,541
Amen to that.
842
00:48:59,762 --> 00:49:02,896
- How's your essay coming along?
- It's good.
843
00:49:03,070 --> 00:49:06,117
Uh, they want me to write
844
00:49:06,291 --> 00:49:09,207
about a time I had to
overcome adversity. Any ideas?
845
00:49:13,907 --> 00:49:15,822
Oh, FIDM!
846
00:49:15,996 --> 00:49:17,955
FIDM!
FIDM!
847
00:50:38,861 --> 00:50:40,428
My constant fear and worry
848
00:50:40,602 --> 00:50:42,561
eventually drives me
to complete insanity.
849
00:50:43,083 --> 00:50:45,955
I lose control of my mind
and decide to murder Emily.
850
00:50:46,652 --> 00:50:48,610
When I get home,
she's asleep in bed.
851
00:50:49,220 --> 00:50:51,265
I grab a butcher knife
and hack her to pieces.
852
00:51:41,489 --> 00:51:43,535
I've just been trying so hard,
you know?
853
00:51:43,709 --> 00:51:45,276
Yeah.
854
00:51:45,450 --> 00:51:47,626
But I think
I'm finally getting it
855
00:51:47,800 --> 00:51:51,020
that I can't take this on alone.
856
00:51:51,195 --> 00:51:52,979
Yeah, but you're here, right?
857
00:51:53,153 --> 00:51:56,417
Brother, you're gonna be okay.
You are.
858
00:51:56,591 --> 00:51:59,246
Steve's diagnosis has been
making my health OCD
859
00:51:59,420 --> 00:52:01,335
flare up like crazy.
860
00:52:01,509 --> 00:52:04,338
Keep digging deep
and trusting the process.
861
00:52:04,512 --> 00:52:06,514
Just like OCD
doesn't develop overnight,
862
00:52:06,688 --> 00:52:08,473
it takes time to do the work.
863
00:52:08,647 --> 00:52:10,214
But you're killing it, man.
864
00:52:10,388 --> 00:52:11,693
Mm, I don't know.
865
00:52:11,867 --> 00:52:15,044
- Thanks, guys. That's it.
- Yeah?
866
00:52:15,219 --> 00:52:17,873
Okay. Rodney, how was your week?
867
00:52:18,047 --> 00:52:19,353
Aw, fuck!
868
00:52:19,527 --> 00:52:21,834
Well, my week sucked, man.
869
00:52:22,008 --> 00:52:23,618
Yeah. Uh, all right,
870
00:52:23,792 --> 00:52:28,188
so I was already running late
for work on Thursday
871
00:52:28,362 --> 00:52:31,583
when I had this massive spike.
Yeah.
872
00:52:31,757 --> 00:52:34,586
I drove by this car accident
getting off the freeway.
873
00:52:34,760 --> 00:52:36,370
Yeah.
874
00:52:36,544 --> 00:52:39,721
So, uh, I sat pretty well
with the anxiety,
875
00:52:39,895 --> 00:52:41,158
you know, for a few blocks,
876
00:52:41,332 --> 00:52:43,899
but then, uh, I lost the battle.
877
00:52:44,073 --> 00:52:49,296
Yeah. My OCD convinced me
that I caused the accident.
878
00:52:49,470 --> 00:52:51,907
So I drove back to the scene.
879
00:52:52,081 --> 00:52:53,692
How many times did you drive by?
880
00:52:53,866 --> 00:52:58,087
Fuck. Like five, you know?
Fuck, you know?
881
00:52:58,262 --> 00:53:01,178
I wish it was just
the drive-bys though, right?
882
00:53:01,352 --> 00:53:04,485
- Yeah.
- But--So I parked my bike,
883
00:53:04,659 --> 00:53:07,923
joined everyone on the curb,
and I watched the scene.
884
00:53:08,097 --> 00:53:10,230
Yeah. And I started
asking everyone
885
00:53:10,404 --> 00:53:11,623
if they saw what happened.
886
00:53:11,797 --> 00:53:13,277
So reassurance seeking?
887
00:53:15,192 --> 00:53:18,412
Yeah. But I didn't stop there.
I didn't stop there.
888
00:53:18,586 --> 00:53:20,806
Started probing
the police officer.
889
00:53:20,980 --> 00:53:22,590
Yeah. Yeah.
890
00:53:22,764 --> 00:53:26,072
On the scene. Trying to find out
if they had any leads.
891
00:53:26,246 --> 00:53:28,161
- Right?
- No, you didn't. NO, you--
892
00:53:28,335 --> 00:53:31,077
Grab your popcorn.
This shit gets even better.
893
00:53:31,251 --> 00:53:32,339
- Yeah.
- All right.
894
00:53:34,341 --> 00:53:36,648
So an ambulance came, right?
895
00:53:36,822 --> 00:53:41,043
And I ended up following it
all the way to the hospital.
896
00:53:41,218 --> 00:53:42,436
- My God. Rodney!
- Yeah.
897
00:53:42,610 --> 00:53:45,178
Yeah, but before
he got admitted,
898
00:53:45,352 --> 00:53:47,093
I walked in front of the guy
899
00:53:47,267 --> 00:53:52,098
that got into the car accident
to see if he recognized me, man.
900
00:53:52,272 --> 00:53:54,492
Like total weirdo shit, man.
901
00:53:54,666 --> 00:53:56,668
Total weirdo shit.
902
00:53:56,842 --> 00:54:01,977
I mean, I'm laughing now, but...
903
00:54:02,151 --> 00:54:05,372
But it was shitty as hell,
you know?
904
00:54:06,895 --> 00:54:08,027
I was like, what,
905
00:54:08,201 --> 00:54:10,986
like two hours late for work.
906
00:54:11,160 --> 00:54:14,686
And I spent the rest of the day
convinced--
907
00:54:14,860 --> 00:54:16,905
I was so fucking convinced
908
00:54:17,079 --> 00:54:18,864
that the cops were
gonna come arrest me
909
00:54:19,038 --> 00:54:20,779
any second, man. Right?
910
00:54:22,433 --> 00:54:24,173
Isn't that crazy?
911
00:54:24,348 --> 00:54:25,305
Fucking weird.
912
00:54:26,567 --> 00:54:28,482
How was your week, Liz?
913
00:54:28,656 --> 00:54:31,268
I'm glad you're here, Rodney.
914
00:54:31,442 --> 00:54:33,792
Oh, Jake.
You're gonna be all right, Coop.
915
00:54:33,966 --> 00:54:35,533
Thanks, man.
916
00:54:35,707 --> 00:54:36,925
Fuck, right?
917
00:54:38,971 --> 00:54:40,755
Aw, shit, man.
918
00:54:40,929 --> 00:54:42,931
Yeah. Yeah, fuck it.
919
00:54:51,331 --> 00:54:53,072
Hey, hey.
920
00:54:53,246 --> 00:54:54,421
Hey, mate.
921
00:54:56,075 --> 00:54:57,903
What's going on in the game?
922
00:54:58,077 --> 00:55:01,080
Uh... Oh, uh...
923
00:55:01,254 --> 00:55:04,475
- Lakers just pulled it out.
- Nice.
924
00:55:04,649 --> 00:55:08,087
Yeah. You want a drink?
925
00:55:08,261 --> 00:55:10,568
I'm okay. Thanks.
926
00:55:10,742 --> 00:55:12,047
Oh, no, it's okay.
927
00:55:12,221 --> 00:55:13,832
I'll have one for you.
928
00:55:17,096 --> 00:55:18,227
So...
929
00:55:20,055 --> 00:55:21,927
I just wanna
address the elephant.
930
00:55:25,017 --> 00:55:26,801
It's Stage 4.
931
00:55:26,975 --> 00:55:28,194
It's aggressive.
932
00:55:29,848 --> 00:55:32,067
I'm pretty much looking
to palliative care.
933
00:55:43,775 --> 00:55:44,645
Okay.
934
00:55:47,909 --> 00:55:49,433
You two take care of Janice.
935
00:55:52,392 --> 00:55:55,439
Gonna fight the hell out of
this thing for as long as I can.
936
00:55:57,484 --> 00:55:59,181
But she's gonna need
a lot of support.
937
00:56:00,095 --> 00:56:02,881
Absolutely. But we're gonna
be here for you too.
938
00:56:03,838 --> 00:56:05,318
- Yeah.
- Okay?
939
00:56:06,188 --> 00:56:08,930
Em told me you know a lot
about this stuff.
940
00:56:09,104 --> 00:56:10,671
I have--Yeah.
941
00:56:12,717 --> 00:56:15,807
I weirdly have a lot
of cancer knowledge. Yeah.
942
00:56:19,288 --> 00:56:21,465
What do you think
of my chemo hat?
943
00:56:23,249 --> 00:56:24,555
Pretty sharp, huh?
944
00:56:26,774 --> 00:56:27,775
Sinatra.
945
00:56:27,949 --> 00:56:29,255
Sinatra in the flesh.
946
00:56:31,257 --> 00:56:32,737
"Luck Be a Lady."
947
00:56:44,357 --> 00:56:46,577
You got this, Steve.
You're gonna be okay.
948
00:56:48,666 --> 00:56:49,536
Yeah.
949
00:56:52,017 --> 00:56:53,018
I'm scared.
950
00:56:56,848 --> 00:56:57,805
I know.
951
00:57:01,069 --> 00:57:02,810
I don't wanna go first.
952
00:57:08,860 --> 00:57:10,296
First.
953
00:57:20,611 --> 00:57:21,481
You okay?
954
00:57:28,183 --> 00:57:30,011
So apparently,
the morning-after pill
955
00:57:30,185 --> 00:57:31,970
only works on leftover sperm
956
00:57:32,144 --> 00:57:35,539
and is useless if the sperm
and the egg have already fused.
957
00:57:38,585 --> 00:57:41,109
- Wait, what?
- Yeah, so I'm fucking pregnant.
958
00:57:52,817 --> 00:57:55,776
If we get the abortion, we can't
get it for another two weeks.
959
00:57:57,212 --> 00:57:58,387
How come?
960
00:57:58,562 --> 00:58:02,870
Um, they caught it
so early that...
961
00:58:03,044 --> 00:58:05,482
we have to wait for the embryo
962
00:58:05,656 --> 00:58:07,658
to grow to a certain size,
I guess.
963
00:58:11,226 --> 00:58:12,837
I mean, I'm not--
964
00:58:13,011 --> 00:58:14,491
This isn't, like,
the first time.
965
00:58:14,665 --> 00:58:16,754
- I'm not 19 and we're engaged.
- I know.
966
00:58:19,974 --> 00:58:22,499
I mean, I know that
there's no perfect time. Jesus.
967
00:58:24,892 --> 00:58:28,722
Take all that away.
968
00:58:28,896 --> 00:58:30,507
What's your gut telling you?
969
00:58:33,205 --> 00:58:34,206
I don't know.
970
00:58:35,686 --> 00:58:37,078
I'm confused too.
971
00:58:40,212 --> 00:58:41,518
But I know I love you.
972
00:58:42,954 --> 00:58:44,085
Like a crazy person.
973
00:58:48,307 --> 00:58:49,395
And Steve's dying.
974
00:58:50,831 --> 00:58:53,268
Hey. Come here. Hey.
975
00:58:53,442 --> 00:58:54,705
Come here.
976
00:59:06,325 --> 00:59:07,544
Whatever we decide...
977
00:59:08,893 --> 00:59:10,590
- You decide...
- Mm-hmm.
978
00:59:11,678 --> 00:59:13,158
I'll be right here.
979
00:59:14,986 --> 00:59:16,204
Always.
980
00:59:19,207 --> 00:59:20,426
Okay?
981
00:59:23,429 --> 00:59:24,822
Can I use your shirt?
982
00:59:26,475 --> 00:59:27,868
Here, let me help you.
983
00:59:29,348 --> 00:59:30,479
Mmm.
984
00:59:30,654 --> 00:59:32,046
That is so weird
when you do that.
985
00:59:32,220 --> 00:59:33,831
Mm. You like it.
986
00:59:51,544 --> 00:59:52,632
You good?
987
00:59:52,806 --> 00:59:54,155
What?
988
00:59:54,329 --> 00:59:56,636
You just--ou seem really quiet.
989
00:59:56,810 --> 00:59:58,725
It's freaking me out.
990
00:59:58,899 --> 01:00:00,727
I'm just giving you
space to think.
991
01:00:00,901 --> 01:00:02,947
You're over there
writing your masterpiece.
992
01:00:08,605 --> 01:00:11,390
How long have you
and your fiancée been together?
993
01:00:16,569 --> 01:00:18,658
Eight years.
Wow.
994
01:00:21,095 --> 01:00:23,228
I was like 10
when you guys met.
995
01:00:26,057 --> 01:00:28,320
Oh, like 10.
996
01:00:28,494 --> 01:00:31,932
Like--Like--Like 10?
"I was like 10 years old."
997
01:00:32,106 --> 01:00:33,455
I'm a junkie, okay?
998
01:00:33,630 --> 01:00:35,849
I don't know how to do math.
999
01:00:36,023 --> 01:00:37,503
"I don't do math."
Where you from, dude?
1000
01:00:37,677 --> 01:00:40,288
I don't do math.
Two plus two, I don't know it.
1001
01:00:40,462 --> 01:00:42,029
Two plus two is five.
1002
01:00:42,203 --> 01:00:45,119
Two plus two is five,
maybe six, I don't know.
1003
01:00:45,293 --> 01:00:46,294
"I'm from Omaha."
1004
01:00:48,209 --> 01:00:50,734
Oftentimes you don't see
your rock bottom coming
1005
01:00:50,908 --> 01:00:52,431
until it's too late.
1006
01:00:52,605 --> 01:00:57,349
I have 29 years. I go to
meetings three times a week.
1007
01:00:57,523 --> 01:01:00,613
I'm the CFO
of a Nasdaq-traded company.
1008
01:01:02,006 --> 01:01:03,921
Still, there is not a day
1009
01:01:04,095 --> 01:01:06,488
that I don't think about using.
1010
01:01:06,663 --> 01:01:08,665
Let me leave you with this.
1011
01:01:10,579 --> 01:01:12,669
Get out of your story.
1012
01:01:15,106 --> 01:01:18,196
Get out
of those cyclical thoughts
1013
01:01:18,370 --> 01:01:21,721
that have you thinking
it means anything.
1014
01:01:21,895 --> 01:01:23,462
Because it doesn't.
1015
01:01:23,636 --> 01:01:26,030
The only thing that matters...
1016
01:01:27,335 --> 01:01:28,685
is what you do.
1017
01:01:30,164 --> 01:01:32,123
Every choice you make...
1018
01:01:33,385 --> 01:01:35,822
is a step toward fear...
1019
01:01:37,084 --> 01:01:38,216
or love.
1020
01:01:39,783 --> 01:01:41,132
Choose love.
1021
01:01:46,354 --> 01:01:47,268
- That's me.
- Great.
1022
01:01:47,442 --> 01:01:49,009
- Okay?
- Thank you.
1023
01:01:49,183 --> 01:01:51,142
- Don't be afraid to use it.
- Okay. Thank you.
1024
01:01:51,316 --> 01:01:53,187
- All right.
- Very nice to meet you.
1025
01:01:53,361 --> 01:01:55,015
- Nice to meet you. Bye-bye.
- Thank you.
1026
01:01:55,189 --> 01:01:57,714
Dude. She said
she'd be my sponsor.
1027
01:01:57,888 --> 01:01:59,846
What? Amazing, dude.
1028
01:02:00,020 --> 01:02:02,196
What's that make now,
four or five?
1029
01:02:02,370 --> 01:02:04,068
Two, actually.
1030
01:02:04,242 --> 01:02:06,287
Probably the same amount
of girls you've been with.
1031
01:02:06,461 --> 01:02:07,593
Poor things.
1032
01:02:15,514 --> 01:02:17,342
My constant fear and worry
1033
01:02:17,516 --> 01:02:19,910
eventually drives me
to complete insanity.
1034
01:02:20,084 --> 01:02:23,522
I lose control of my mind
and decide to murder Emily.
1035
01:02:23,696 --> 01:02:25,916
When I get home,
she's asleep in bed.
1036
01:02:26,090 --> 01:02:28,962
I grab a butcher knife
and hack her to pieces.
1037
01:02:32,574 --> 01:02:35,273
♪ Love me like a fire ♪
1038
01:02:35,447 --> 01:02:38,842
♪ And I'll love you
Like a flood ♪
1039
01:02:39,016 --> 01:02:41,583
♪ I'll give you
Everything I have ♪
1040
01:02:41,758 --> 01:02:46,110
♪ Down to the vapors
In my blood ♪
1041
01:02:46,284 --> 01:02:49,678
♪ I'll be your broken levee ♪
1042
01:02:49,853 --> 01:02:53,378
♪ If you will be my drug ♪
1043
01:02:53,552 --> 01:02:56,555
♪ Love me like a fire, boy ♪
1044
01:02:56,729 --> 01:03:00,167
♪ I'll love you like a flood ♪
1045
01:03:00,341 --> 01:03:03,214
♪ Love me like an anchor ♪
1046
01:03:03,388 --> 01:03:06,608
♪ And I'll love you
Like a rock ♪
1047
01:03:06,783 --> 01:03:10,090
I'll give you
Everything I have ♪
1048
01:03:10,264 --> 01:03:14,007
♪ Even the things
I haven't got ♪
1049
01:03:14,181 --> 01:03:17,228
♪ I'll tell you
That I love you ♪
1050
01:03:17,402 --> 01:03:21,101
♪ When you're worried
That I'll stop ♪
1051
01:03:21,275 --> 01:03:24,104
♪ Love me like an anchor, boy ♪
1052
01:03:24,278 --> 01:03:26,933
♪ And I'll love you
Like a rock ♪
1053
01:03:27,107 --> 01:03:33,157
♪ Come on now, love me ♪
1054
01:03:33,331 --> 01:03:39,119
♪ I need you to love me ♪
1055
01:03:40,468 --> 01:03:43,123
♪ Come on, baby ♪
1056
01:03:43,297 --> 01:03:49,651
♪ And love me ♪
1057
01:03:56,920 --> 01:03:59,444
That was around
sophomore year of college.
1058
01:03:59,618 --> 01:04:02,142
Had a difficult period
with hit-and-run,
1059
01:04:02,316 --> 01:04:05,972
uh, and currently
struggling with POCD.
1060
01:04:07,191 --> 01:04:08,845
Hey, man, I'm Cooper.
1061
01:04:09,019 --> 01:04:11,630
I got diagnosed
a few months ago.
1062
01:04:11,804 --> 01:04:14,328
Relationship OCD,
harm OCD, cancer OCD.
1063
01:04:14,502 --> 01:04:18,071
Uh, just figured I'd go for
the trifecta right off the bat.
1064
01:04:18,245 --> 01:04:20,682
Um, I've been
in your position, man.
1065
01:04:20,857 --> 01:04:23,207
I get it. We all do.
1066
01:04:23,381 --> 01:04:25,557
OCD attacks the things
that you love most.
1067
01:04:25,731 --> 01:04:28,342
But this group is unbelievable.
1068
01:04:28,516 --> 01:04:31,258
It's where you're gonna get
the support that you need,
1069
01:04:31,432 --> 01:04:33,130
if you're open to it.
1070
01:04:35,262 --> 01:04:36,785
Thanks.
1071
01:04:36,960 --> 01:04:39,005
- You're welcome, man.
- Yeah.
1072
01:04:41,965 --> 01:04:43,140
So, welcome.
1073
01:04:44,706 --> 01:04:46,447
- Thanks.
- Yeah.
1074
01:04:46,621 --> 01:04:47,448
Yeah, dude.
1075
01:04:47,622 --> 01:04:48,972
All right. See you, bud.
1076
01:04:49,146 --> 01:04:50,364
- Later, Nora.
- Have fun tonight.
1077
01:04:50,538 --> 01:04:52,192
- Hey, Cooper.
- Hmm?
1078
01:04:54,760 --> 01:04:56,980
You are making
some serious progress.
1079
01:04:57,154 --> 01:04:59,460
I really think you're gonna be
a good resource for Brian.
1080
01:04:59,634 --> 01:05:01,201
Thank you. I hope so.
1081
01:05:01,375 --> 01:05:03,508
And I think that you're ready
for a new exposure,
1082
01:05:03,682 --> 01:05:05,031
but I wanna do it here,
1083
01:05:05,205 --> 01:05:06,598
like a one-on-one,
more clinical setting.
1084
01:05:06,772 --> 01:05:08,469
Okay. What is it?
1085
01:05:08,643 --> 01:05:11,168
I think you should talk
to Emily about it first.
1086
01:05:11,342 --> 01:05:13,213
- Okay. Sure.
- Yeah.
1087
01:05:13,387 --> 01:05:14,780
It's hard for me to feel clear
1088
01:05:14,954 --> 01:05:16,477
- about anything right now.
- Mm.
1089
01:05:18,305 --> 01:05:21,874
I'm just getting a handle
on my mental health and...
1090
01:05:23,615 --> 01:05:25,095
Steve's fucking dying.
1091
01:05:25,269 --> 01:05:26,966
I know.
I keep thinking about that.
1092
01:05:27,140 --> 01:05:31,449
Like, the whole "carrying life
while preparing for death."
1093
01:05:33,451 --> 01:05:37,455
But outside of that, it seems
like we're leaning towards "no"?
1094
01:05:37,629 --> 01:05:39,674
Logistically,
it would obviously be better
1095
01:05:39,848 --> 01:05:41,285
down the line.
1096
01:05:41,459 --> 01:05:43,069
But is that what you want?
1097
01:05:44,723 --> 01:05:47,508
You know, I'm not ready either.
1098
01:05:48,945 --> 01:05:50,250
That's not what I said.
1099
01:05:50,424 --> 01:05:52,209
I know, but you're
not saying the opposite.
1100
01:05:53,906 --> 01:05:55,864
Now it sounds
like you wanna keep it?
1101
01:05:56,039 --> 01:05:57,736
No, I--
1102
01:05:57,910 --> 01:06:00,695
I don't know. I don't know.
I don't fucking know, I--
1103
01:06:00,869 --> 01:06:04,699
I told you, I support you
whichever way we go.
1104
01:06:04,873 --> 01:06:08,399
I love you. We're not young,
but we're not old.
1105
01:06:10,009 --> 01:06:12,098
We can do whatever we want.
We can...
1106
01:06:12,272 --> 01:06:14,187
We can freeze eggs.
We can adopt.
1107
01:06:14,361 --> 01:06:15,754
We can...
1108
01:06:15,928 --> 01:06:17,103
get pregnant again.
1109
01:06:18,626 --> 01:06:20,106
We've talked about
all these things.
1110
01:06:20,280 --> 01:06:21,238
Yeah.
1111
01:06:23,588 --> 01:06:25,024
You're right.
1112
01:06:25,198 --> 01:06:28,462
No. You're right.
We should wait. We should...
1113
01:06:28,636 --> 01:06:31,422
We should get through all
your mental health stuff and--
1114
01:06:31,596 --> 01:06:34,729
And Steve and all of the grief.
And then...
1115
01:06:34,903 --> 01:06:37,254
And then we should reset.
1116
01:06:37,428 --> 01:06:41,693
You know, we should travel
and plan our wedding and...
1117
01:06:41,867 --> 01:06:43,869
And do it on our own terms.
1118
01:06:46,524 --> 01:06:47,786
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
1119
01:06:48,700 --> 01:06:49,744
Yeah.
1120
01:06:53,705 --> 01:06:54,706
Okay.
1121
01:07:26,825 --> 01:07:28,348
Hey, dinner's almost ready.
1122
01:07:28,522 --> 01:07:29,915
- No rush.
- Thanks.
1123
01:07:32,613 --> 01:07:34,963
Wow, this the new series?
1124
01:07:35,138 --> 01:07:37,879
Yeah. I just went up to Matador.
1125
01:07:39,055 --> 01:07:40,273
I thought it might help
1126
01:07:40,447 --> 01:07:42,014
to put my head
back into work.
1127
01:07:42,188 --> 01:07:44,364
Wow, these are...
1128
01:07:44,538 --> 01:07:47,498
amazing, J. Seriously.
There's something so...
1129
01:07:51,502 --> 01:07:52,851
otherworldly about them.
1130
01:07:53,025 --> 01:07:55,593
Yeah. Thanks.
1131
01:07:57,812 --> 01:08:00,467
- Oh. Oh, okay.
- Mm-hm.
1132
01:08:09,650 --> 01:08:10,782
How are you?
1133
01:08:12,218 --> 01:08:13,654
Em told me
1134
01:08:13,828 --> 01:08:15,352
he's not responding
to the chemo very well.
1135
01:08:15,526 --> 01:08:18,094
I've made my peace with it
best I can.
1136
01:08:19,443 --> 01:08:21,314
I tell you what, though,
1137
01:08:21,488 --> 01:08:25,536
managing other people's emotions
is exhausting.
1138
01:08:25,710 --> 01:08:27,581
Fuckin' A.
1139
01:08:27,755 --> 01:08:29,670
Thank you.
1140
01:08:33,674 --> 01:08:36,503
I know you've been
going through a lot.
1141
01:08:38,201 --> 01:08:40,116
But I appreciate everything.
1142
01:08:42,248 --> 01:08:43,510
Of course.
1143
01:08:45,686 --> 01:08:48,472
Em told me
what you guys decided.
1144
01:08:51,605 --> 01:08:53,041
Are you okay?
1145
01:09:01,528 --> 01:09:03,313
I think so.
1146
01:09:06,098 --> 01:09:07,839
That's about as far
as I ever get.
1147
01:10:03,416 --> 01:10:05,462
Okay.
1148
01:10:05,636 --> 01:10:10,031
Both of you find a rock,
like one the size of a baseball.
1149
01:10:10,206 --> 01:10:12,033
- Why?
- Just fucking do it.
1150
01:10:12,208 --> 01:10:13,861
- Who made you counselor?
- You're always
1151
01:10:14,035 --> 01:10:15,994
challenging everything.
It's fucking exhausting.
1152
01:10:16,168 --> 01:10:17,561
Okay. Okay.
1153
01:10:17,735 --> 01:10:20,738
Enough. Just trust me
for a second, okay?
1154
01:10:31,923 --> 01:10:33,620
Write whatever you want.
1155
01:10:36,884 --> 01:10:38,712
Gonna play along?
1156
01:10:38,886 --> 01:10:40,671
All right. I want you
to charge this rock
1157
01:10:40,845 --> 01:10:42,586
with all the negativity...
1158
01:10:44,152 --> 01:10:45,328
all the pain...
1159
01:10:47,068 --> 01:10:48,635
shame...
1160
01:10:48,809 --> 01:10:49,984
guilt.
1161
01:10:51,986 --> 01:10:54,815
I know it sounds like some
wack-ass shit, Brandon. Just...
1162
01:10:57,427 --> 01:10:58,602
bear with me.
1163
01:11:01,518 --> 01:11:03,128
And then you're just gonna...
1164
01:11:04,608 --> 01:11:06,262
Fuck cancer!
1165
01:11:14,748 --> 01:11:16,315
Fuck heroin!
1166
01:11:25,672 --> 01:11:27,544
Y'all is corny as fuck.
1167
01:11:35,813 --> 01:11:38,642
Fuck this ratchet-ass shit.
1168
01:11:38,816 --> 01:11:40,296
Let me play something.
1169
01:11:40,470 --> 01:11:42,472
No one wants to hear
your country shit.
1170
01:11:42,646 --> 01:11:43,995
- You think that's better?
- Yeah.
1171
01:11:44,169 --> 01:11:45,736
- That's better than this?
- Yeah.
1172
01:11:45,910 --> 01:11:48,129
- This is so good.
- Who you even listening to?
1173
01:11:48,304 --> 01:11:51,785
Your mom. I'm listening to
your mom. Your mom's new album.
1174
01:11:51,959 --> 01:11:53,134
Everything cool?
1175
01:11:54,875 --> 01:11:57,356
I don't think so.
I have to call Emily.
1176
01:11:57,530 --> 01:11:58,923
- Can you hold it down?
- Yeah.
1177
01:11:59,097 --> 01:12:01,491
I'm so sorry, dude.
I--I'll explain to you.
1178
01:12:01,665 --> 01:12:04,145
I'll explain it later, dude.
1179
01:12:04,320 --> 01:12:05,973
At least I got a mom.
1180
01:12:07,323 --> 01:12:08,367
Hey.
1181
01:12:09,803 --> 01:12:11,239
I'm gonna lead you back.
1182
01:12:18,508 --> 01:12:23,774
♪ Hope
Is the strangest of words ♪
1183
01:12:26,864 --> 01:12:31,869
♪ I choose
to keep the faith I deserve ♪
1184
01:12:33,653 --> 01:12:36,613
♪ The rest is absurd ♪
1185
01:12:43,271 --> 01:12:48,407
♪ When the thunder
Crashes down ♪
1186
01:12:51,410 --> 01:12:57,808
♪ I will take solace
In the sound ♪
1187
01:12:57,982 --> 01:13:00,419
♪ Because serenity
I have found ♪
1188
01:13:07,470 --> 01:13:09,646
♪ The angels in the attic ♪
1189
01:13:09,820 --> 01:13:13,563
♪ Are breaking my habits
In half ♪
1190
01:13:13,737 --> 01:13:17,305
♪ I'm living this life
Like it's my last ♪
1191
01:13:19,482 --> 01:13:24,574
♪ In a shade
That is brighter than black ♪
1192
01:13:27,664 --> 01:13:33,104
♪ In a shade
That is brighter than black ♪
1193
01:13:35,802 --> 01:13:41,417
♪ In a shade
That is brighter than black ♪
1194
01:13:43,941 --> 01:13:49,468
♪ In a shade
That is brighter than black ♪
1195
01:14:25,156 --> 01:14:28,159
- Thanks for coming.
- Of course.
1196
01:14:28,333 --> 01:14:30,074
Well, in my experience,
1197
01:14:30,248 --> 01:14:32,163
it hasn't always been
"of course."
1198
01:14:32,337 --> 01:14:34,470
This kind of treatment
is often misunderstood.
1199
01:14:36,123 --> 01:14:39,475
Well, I... I just wanna help
in any way I can.
1200
01:14:43,217 --> 01:14:44,871
So are you ready to try it?
1201
01:14:46,046 --> 01:14:46,873
Mm-hm.
1202
01:14:47,047 --> 01:14:48,222
Okay.
1203
01:14:56,883 --> 01:14:58,929
First thing.
Cooper, pick up the knife.
1204
01:15:02,454 --> 01:15:03,629
Okay.
1205
01:15:09,417 --> 01:15:11,898
How does that feel,
sitting next to Emily with it?
1206
01:15:14,553 --> 01:15:16,424
- I feel fine.
- Great.
1207
01:15:16,599 --> 01:15:19,515
Now turn your chairs
so they're facing each other.
1208
01:15:28,175 --> 01:15:30,003
Okay. Point the knife at her.
1209
01:15:40,884 --> 01:15:42,233
How does that feel?
1210
01:15:46,106 --> 01:15:47,238
I'm okay.
1211
01:15:49,457 --> 01:15:51,459
Now take her left hand,
palm up.
1212
01:15:54,680 --> 01:15:56,639
You're gonna place the knife
on her wrist
1213
01:15:56,813 --> 01:15:58,466
so that the serrated edge is up.
1214
01:16:02,906 --> 01:16:05,212
Hey. I'm fine. Go ahead.
1215
01:16:14,091 --> 01:16:15,527
Okay.
1216
01:16:15,701 --> 01:16:17,964
Sit here for a second
in the anxiety.
1217
01:16:18,138 --> 01:16:21,707
Don't let yourself engage
in any mental rituals.
1218
01:16:21,881 --> 01:16:22,969
I'm okay.
1219
01:16:24,318 --> 01:16:25,972
Now, both of you stand up.
1220
01:16:31,238 --> 01:16:33,327
Cooper, hold the knife...
1221
01:16:33,501 --> 01:16:36,679
against her wrist
with the sharp end down.
1222
01:16:38,985 --> 01:16:40,204
Okay.
1223
01:16:40,378 --> 01:16:41,684
It's totally okay, Cooper.
1224
01:16:41,858 --> 01:16:43,555
- Mm-hm.
- We're gauging this as we go.
1225
01:16:43,990 --> 01:16:45,557
We won't take it any further
than you're capable of.
1226
01:16:45,731 --> 01:16:48,255
No, no, no.
I just--I--I need--
1227
01:16:48,429 --> 01:16:50,954
I need--I need a moment.
I'm okay. I, uh...
1228
01:16:51,389 --> 01:16:54,479
I'm nervous, but I...
I can still handle it.
1229
01:16:58,701 --> 01:17:01,660
Now say,
"I might cut you, Emily."
1230
01:17:14,804 --> 01:17:15,979
I might cut you, Emily.
1231
01:17:16,632 --> 01:17:18,068
That's amazing, Cooper.
1232
01:17:18,416 --> 01:17:20,505
- Emily, you all right?
- Uh-huh.
1233
01:17:21,245 --> 01:17:23,116
- Yeah?
- Yeah, yeah.
1234
01:17:23,290 --> 01:17:24,857
All right. Last one.
1235
01:17:25,031 --> 01:17:27,338
Cooper, hold the knife
up to Emily's neck.
1236
01:17:28,731 --> 01:17:30,341
- What?
- If you're not ready,
1237
01:17:30,515 --> 01:17:34,519
it's completely 100% okay,
but I think that you are.
1238
01:17:36,564 --> 01:17:39,219
I wouldn't have you doing this
if I thought otherwise.
1239
01:17:41,004 --> 01:17:41,961
Mmm...
1240
01:17:43,789 --> 01:17:46,052
I, um--I just need a minute.
I need a minute.
1241
01:17:46,226 --> 01:17:48,838
Take all the time you need.
1242
01:17:49,012 --> 01:17:51,536
And again, it's okay
if you don't feel ready.
1243
01:17:51,710 --> 01:17:54,147
Your progress today
has been incredible.
1244
01:17:56,106 --> 01:17:58,978
Okay, let's do it.
Let's go, let's go. Um...
1245
01:18:07,900 --> 01:18:09,467
- You ready?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
1246
01:18:09,641 --> 01:18:10,686
Okay.
1247
01:18:19,085 --> 01:18:20,826
- No compulsions.
- Mm-hm, mm-hm.
1248
01:18:21,000 --> 01:18:22,785
Just let the anxiety be there.
1249
01:18:22,959 --> 01:18:26,832
Now say,
"Emily, I'm gonna cut you,
1250
01:18:27,006 --> 01:18:29,487
and you're gonna bleed out
and die."
1251
01:18:33,186 --> 01:18:34,710
Oh, fuck.
1252
01:18:36,146 --> 01:18:38,322
I'm gonna cut you, Emily.
And, uh...
1253
01:18:45,111 --> 01:18:47,592
- Fuck.
- I'm so proud of you. You can--
1254
01:18:47,766 --> 01:18:50,160
- No reassurances.
- Oh, sor--Okay.
1255
01:19:00,126 --> 01:19:02,781
Emily, I'm gonna cut you.
You're gonna bleed out and die.
1256
01:19:09,919 --> 01:19:11,616
I'm sorry.
1257
01:19:11,790 --> 01:19:13,313
You're safe.
1258
01:19:14,488 --> 01:19:15,446
Fuck!
1259
01:19:15,620 --> 01:19:17,143
That took profound bravery.
1260
01:19:17,317 --> 01:19:18,797
Okay.
1261
01:19:22,235 --> 01:19:25,412
I'm so embarrassed.
I'm sorry. I'm so embarrassed.
1262
01:19:25,586 --> 01:19:28,676
It's okay. It's all okay.
It's okay.
1263
01:19:30,896 --> 01:19:32,942
I really appreciate
you doing this. I'm sorry.
1264
01:19:33,116 --> 01:19:35,118
- It's okay. It's okay.
- Fuck.
1265
01:19:35,292 --> 01:19:37,163
It's okay. I've got you.
1266
01:19:39,078 --> 01:19:40,906
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
1267
01:19:41,080 --> 01:19:42,734
- It's okay. It's okay.
- Fuck.
1268
01:19:42,908 --> 01:19:45,041
It's okay. You're okay.
1269
01:19:45,215 --> 01:19:46,216
You're okay.
1270
01:19:47,391 --> 01:19:48,522
You're okay.
1271
01:19:59,707 --> 01:20:02,275
- Hey.
- Hey.
1272
01:20:02,449 --> 01:20:06,540
Thanks for doing that.
I know that was pretty weird.
1273
01:20:06,714 --> 01:20:10,066
I mean, yeah.
Yeah, a little, but I get it.
1274
01:20:11,632 --> 01:20:12,808
I'm proud of you.
1275
01:20:13,852 --> 01:20:14,810
Thanks.
1276
01:20:24,210 --> 01:20:25,646
Sorry, how long do you think
1277
01:20:25,821 --> 01:20:27,779
until, uh, we can laugh
about this?
1278
01:20:29,999 --> 01:20:31,087
Sorry.
1279
01:20:35,047 --> 01:20:37,441
Ahem, sorry. Sorry. I'm sorry.
No, I'm not, I'm not.
1280
01:20:37,615 --> 01:20:39,922
I'm sorry. I'm not
trying to minimize it.
1281
01:20:40,096 --> 01:20:41,227
Everything that you just did
1282
01:20:41,401 --> 01:20:43,055
was so beautiful
and so vulnerable.
1283
01:20:43,229 --> 01:20:45,710
And I'm so sorry.
1284
01:20:45,884 --> 01:20:47,799
- Dude.
- I'm sorry.
1285
01:20:51,020 --> 01:20:53,674
Okay. Okay. Okay.
1286
01:20:57,591 --> 01:21:02,596
Hey. I'm really--
I'm really proud of you. Okay?
1287
01:21:02,770 --> 01:21:03,946
Yeah. Thanks.
1288
01:21:04,120 --> 01:21:06,122
I really am. Come here.
1289
01:21:09,734 --> 01:21:11,518
Oh!
1290
01:21:13,303 --> 01:21:15,305
- All right.
- Mm-hm.
1291
01:21:18,308 --> 01:21:19,526
Here we go.
1292
01:21:19,700 --> 01:21:21,746
You got this.
We went over everything.
1293
01:21:27,578 --> 01:21:30,233
Yeah, dude. Yes!
1294
01:21:30,407 --> 01:21:32,452
- So that's it?
- Yeah.
1295
01:21:32,626 --> 01:21:34,933
He signed the contract
with the therapy team.
1296
01:21:35,107 --> 01:21:36,717
He's fully aware.
1297
01:21:36,892 --> 01:21:39,459
No more bullshit
or he gets sent back to County.
1298
01:21:39,633 --> 01:21:41,722
Good. That's what he needs.
1299
01:21:41,897 --> 01:21:43,768
Scrubbing floors
and Big Book meetings.
1300
01:21:43,942 --> 01:21:46,379
This holistic approach
isn't working for him.
1301
01:21:46,553 --> 01:21:48,338
Well, all right then.
1302
01:21:48,512 --> 01:21:51,036
Guy's a lost cause anyway.
Let's protect our energy.
1303
01:21:51,210 --> 01:21:52,646
- For sure.
- Mm-hm.
1304
01:22:02,091 --> 01:22:03,701
Emily Mansfield.
1305
01:22:06,399 --> 01:22:08,445
So both options
are equally effective.
1306
01:22:08,619 --> 01:22:10,142
It's just
a matter of preference.
1307
01:22:10,316 --> 01:22:12,144
But if we put her under,
we have to come back.
1308
01:22:12,318 --> 01:22:13,363
That's right.
1309
01:22:14,712 --> 01:22:15,800
Okay.
1310
01:22:17,410 --> 01:22:20,283
Do you mind giving us
a minute to decide?
1311
01:22:20,457 --> 01:22:21,588
No, not at all.
1312
01:22:21,762 --> 01:22:23,460
I don't need a minute.
1313
01:22:23,634 --> 01:22:25,766
I don't want
to come back again, so...
1314
01:22:27,159 --> 01:22:28,595
Are you sure?
1315
01:22:28,769 --> 01:22:30,467
I think we should
take a minute to process this.
1316
01:22:30,641 --> 01:22:32,730
No, I just said
I don't need a minute.
1317
01:22:32,904 --> 01:22:34,297
You just heard her.
1318
01:22:34,471 --> 01:22:36,168
You know, let's do it.
1319
01:22:36,342 --> 01:22:38,866
I don't wanna wonder
if we didn't finish the job.
1320
01:22:42,131 --> 01:22:43,654
Okay.
1321
01:22:43,828 --> 01:22:46,352
- Local anesthesia it is.
- Okay.
1322
01:22:46,526 --> 01:22:48,224
- Yeah.
- I'll be back in 15 minutes.
1323
01:22:48,398 --> 01:22:49,616
Thank you.
1324
01:22:53,316 --> 01:22:54,230
You sure?
Yeah.
1325
01:22:54,404 --> 01:22:55,492
Yeah?
Yeah.
1326
01:22:55,666 --> 01:22:56,623
You don't have to do it.
1327
01:22:56,797 --> 01:22:58,147
No, I know. I'm okay.
1328
01:23:04,066 --> 01:23:05,458
Oh, thanks.
1329
01:23:10,246 --> 01:23:12,944
Okay, can you distract me?
Can you, like, just--?
1330
01:23:13,118 --> 01:23:14,119
Can you just talk?
1331
01:23:15,338 --> 01:23:17,688
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Yeah?
1332
01:23:17,862 --> 01:23:18,819
- Um...
- Just talk.
1333
01:23:18,994 --> 01:23:20,473
About what?
1334
01:23:20,647 --> 01:23:21,735
Um...
1335
01:23:23,476 --> 01:23:25,043
What's your favorite day
1336
01:23:25,217 --> 01:23:27,350
in our relationship,
do you think?
1337
01:23:27,524 --> 01:23:29,178
- Ever?
- Ever. Yeah.
1338
01:23:30,570 --> 01:23:31,702
Come on.
1339
01:23:33,051 --> 01:23:35,097
Um...
1340
01:23:35,271 --> 01:23:36,402
Come on.
1341
01:23:38,752 --> 01:23:39,971
Probably...
1342
01:23:41,886 --> 01:23:43,496
Remember when
we were in Serbia?
1343
01:23:43,670 --> 01:23:44,584
Yeah.
1344
01:23:45,977 --> 01:23:47,718
And we went wine tasting?
1345
01:23:47,892 --> 01:23:48,806
Yeah.
1346
01:23:48,980 --> 01:23:50,199
- Remember? Yeah?
- Yeah.
1347
01:23:50,373 --> 01:23:52,288
- And we--It started raining.
- Yes.
1348
01:23:54,333 --> 01:23:58,946
And we went and we made love
in that castle in Novi Sad.
1349
01:23:59,121 --> 01:24:00,426
- Yeah, we did.
- Yeah, we did.
1350
01:24:00,600 --> 01:24:01,862
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
1351
01:24:04,126 --> 01:24:06,867
- What about you?
- I don't know.
1352
01:24:07,042 --> 01:24:10,828
I don't have a specific day
that pops into mind. I just...
1353
01:24:12,917 --> 01:24:16,051
I don't know. I think all
the little moments, you know.
1354
01:24:16,225 --> 01:24:17,443
Me too.
1355
01:24:17,617 --> 01:24:19,837
- Sorry.
- Don't be sorry.
1356
01:24:20,011 --> 01:24:21,491
Are you ready?
1357
01:24:21,665 --> 01:24:22,796
Mm-hm.
1358
01:24:22,970 --> 01:24:24,668
Yeah. Yeah, right?
1359
01:24:26,061 --> 01:24:26,974
- Okay.
- Okay.
1360
01:24:27,149 --> 01:24:29,542
- Yep. Like this?
- Mm-hm.
1361
01:24:29,716 --> 01:24:31,109
- Okay.
- You're doing great.
1362
01:24:32,719 --> 01:24:34,069
- Okay.
- Now just...
1363
01:24:34,243 --> 01:24:37,115
You're doing great.
It's gonna be okay.
1364
01:24:37,289 --> 01:24:39,248
- You're doing great.
- Great.
1365
01:24:43,948 --> 01:24:45,080
Mm-hm.
1366
01:24:47,647 --> 01:24:48,735
Mm-hm.
1367
01:24:51,086 --> 01:24:52,174
I'm okay.
1368
01:24:55,525 --> 01:24:57,527
- You're okay, babe. I know.
- Mm-hm.
1369
01:25:08,233 --> 01:25:10,105
I'll be back.
I'm gonna pick up dinner.
1370
01:25:11,671 --> 01:25:13,630
Okay.
1371
01:25:13,804 --> 01:25:15,849
Text me. Let me know
if you need anything.
1372
01:25:38,698 --> 01:25:42,528
Fuck! Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck,
fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!
1373
01:25:42,702 --> 01:25:44,139
Fuck! Fuck!
1374
01:25:53,713 --> 01:25:56,586
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
1375
01:26:01,156 --> 01:26:03,941
Oh, fuck. Oh, God.
1376
01:26:15,257 --> 01:26:16,693
I'm gonna go to bed.
1377
01:26:18,608 --> 01:26:19,565
Okay.
1378
01:26:25,397 --> 01:26:28,748
Oh, honey. What did you expect?
1379
01:26:40,891 --> 01:26:42,153
Is he coming?
1380
01:26:57,124 --> 01:26:58,387
Here I am, Coop.
1381
01:27:00,084 --> 01:27:01,738
What's on the docket today?
1382
01:27:01,912 --> 01:27:04,219
Want us to write about
our fucked-up childhoods?
1383
01:27:05,611 --> 01:27:06,873
Where's your notebook?
1384
01:27:08,179 --> 01:27:09,441
I lost it.
1385
01:27:23,977 --> 01:27:26,415
The prompt is: if you could give
your past self advice,
1386
01:27:26,589 --> 01:27:28,155
what would you say?
1387
01:27:29,766 --> 01:27:31,463
Brandon,
unfortunately that means
1388
01:27:31,637 --> 01:27:34,118
you've had to have learned
something before, so...
1389
01:27:38,862 --> 01:27:41,908
I learned that you think
you're a fucking fashion guru,
1390
01:27:42,082 --> 01:27:43,736
but you ain't shit
but a junkie.
1391
01:27:43,910 --> 01:27:45,738
All right.
1392
01:27:45,912 --> 01:27:49,612
That's enough. I don't want to
hear another word from anyone.
1393
01:27:51,483 --> 01:27:53,398
The only sound should be
the sound of pens
1394
01:27:53,572 --> 01:27:54,617
scribbling on paper.
1395
01:27:55,966 --> 01:27:57,359
I didn't start anything.
1396
01:27:57,533 --> 01:27:59,143
- It doesn't matter.
- The hell it doesn't.
1397
01:27:59,317 --> 01:28:01,276
Take it up
with your therapist.
1398
01:28:03,321 --> 01:28:04,453
Whatever.
1399
01:28:14,376 --> 01:28:15,812
Put your phone away.
1400
01:28:21,557 --> 01:28:22,514
Brandon.
1401
01:28:33,438 --> 01:28:34,526
Brandon.
1402
01:28:42,055 --> 01:28:44,144
- Give me my fucking phone back!
- No phones in group.
1403
01:28:44,319 --> 01:28:46,277
- That ain't yours!
- Get it back after group.
1404
01:28:46,451 --> 01:28:49,367
Yeah, well, fuck
your bitch-ass group!
1405
01:28:49,541 --> 01:28:51,674
Y'all fucked up now!
1406
01:29:03,076 --> 01:29:04,643
I'm really sorry, Coop.
1407
01:29:14,087 --> 01:29:17,003
Fuck this goddamn bullshit!
1408
01:29:24,054 --> 01:29:26,273
Flip one more piece of furniture
and you're out of here.
1409
01:29:26,448 --> 01:29:29,015
- You've already been warned.
- I don't give a shit anymore!
1410
01:29:29,189 --> 01:29:30,669
You never gave a shit
in the first place!
1411
01:29:30,843 --> 01:29:32,018
You motherfucker!
1412
01:29:32,192 --> 01:29:33,455
Tell me I'm wrong.
1413
01:29:34,847 --> 01:29:36,240
You don't get it.
1414
01:29:36,414 --> 01:29:39,112
You're not sober.
I don't want to talk to you.
1415
01:29:39,286 --> 01:29:41,941
- It's just me here.
- Then fuck off!
1416
01:29:42,115 --> 01:29:44,814
You signed the agreement.
1417
01:29:44,988 --> 01:29:47,425
If you don't come back
and join the group,
1418
01:29:47,599 --> 01:29:49,209
you're going back to jail.
1419
01:29:49,384 --> 01:29:52,343
Man, you on some shit
I ain't even ever seen before.
1420
01:29:52,517 --> 01:29:54,345
You got me all fucked up!
1421
01:29:54,519 --> 01:29:56,608
Back up. I'm gonna lock myself
in the office
1422
01:29:56,782 --> 01:29:59,916
and call the police.
1423
01:30:00,090 --> 01:30:01,961
I got two little girls, man.
1424
01:30:02,135 --> 01:30:04,486
I know you do.
I'd like to help you if I can.
1425
01:30:04,660 --> 01:30:07,793
Why?
You can't help me anyway, bro.
1426
01:30:07,967 --> 01:30:11,101
What, you think having us
write in a journal or do yoga
1427
01:30:11,275 --> 01:30:13,016
is going to do anything?
1428
01:30:13,190 --> 01:30:16,715
I do. I do, yeah.
1429
01:30:16,889 --> 01:30:19,501
No. Anybody can come
to a mansion
1430
01:30:19,675 --> 01:30:22,678
and find their chi
or whatever the fuck.
1431
01:30:22,852 --> 01:30:25,550
It's just me out there, man!
1432
01:30:27,639 --> 01:30:29,032
It doesn't have to be.
1433
01:30:33,732 --> 01:30:35,691
You don't know
what it's like to be alone,
1434
01:30:35,865 --> 01:30:37,562
to feel alone and all that shit.
1435
01:30:40,870 --> 01:30:42,480
You'd be surprised.
1436
01:30:46,484 --> 01:30:48,312
You got your cool-guy vibe,
1437
01:30:48,486 --> 01:30:51,184
your fiancée,
living in Hollywood.
1438
01:30:52,925 --> 01:30:54,666
You don't know shit
about me, man.
1439
01:30:54,840 --> 01:30:56,146
Mm.
1440
01:30:56,320 --> 01:30:57,713
But you wanna give me
the sound bites
1441
01:30:57,887 --> 01:31:01,020
and the Instagram recap,
go ahead.
1442
01:31:01,194 --> 01:31:02,500
That's what this is, right?
1443
01:31:02,674 --> 01:31:04,415
We come here,
spill all our bullshit,
1444
01:31:04,589 --> 01:31:08,288
and you just throw us
pithy phrases like robots.
1445
01:31:08,463 --> 01:31:11,988
You have zero fucking clue
1446
01:31:12,162 --> 01:31:15,078
what it's like to have
to trick yourself every day
1447
01:31:15,252 --> 01:31:18,385
into actually thinking
you can fix yourself!
1448
01:31:29,745 --> 01:31:30,920
Sit down.
1449
01:31:33,052 --> 01:31:37,056
You wanna hear my shit?
Sit down. I'll tell you.
1450
01:31:57,990 --> 01:31:59,775
Been suicidal
for the last year.
1451
01:32:03,518 --> 01:32:04,693
Thought I was.
1452
01:32:07,304 --> 01:32:09,872
I had lost control of my mind.
1453
01:32:10,046 --> 01:32:12,396
Thought I was headed
for an insane asylum.
1454
01:32:14,659 --> 01:32:16,705
Turns out I have clinical OCD.
1455
01:32:18,576 --> 01:32:19,925
Now I just walk around
1456
01:32:20,099 --> 01:32:22,058
with the obsession
that I might go crazy
1457
01:32:22,232 --> 01:32:25,278
and slit my fiancée's throat
and then commit suicide.
1458
01:32:27,672 --> 01:32:30,196
I've also become obsessed
that I have terminal cancer.
1459
01:32:34,331 --> 01:32:38,117
This experience has completely
destroyed my self-esteem.
1460
01:32:40,990 --> 01:32:43,645
And I think that I'm a total
failure of a human being.
1461
01:32:48,084 --> 01:32:50,303
And I oscillate...
1462
01:32:50,477 --> 01:32:51,957
between all those thoughts
1463
01:32:52,131 --> 01:32:55,004
about once every 15 seconds
of my waking life.
1464
01:32:57,267 --> 01:33:00,052
Top of that, my future
father-in-law just died.
1465
01:33:00,226 --> 01:33:01,184
Lung cancer.
1466
01:33:02,577 --> 01:33:04,317
Then my fiancée got pregnant.
1467
01:33:06,537 --> 01:33:07,930
Decided to have an abortion.
1468
01:33:10,454 --> 01:33:11,716
Now she regrets it.
1469
01:33:14,327 --> 01:33:15,720
I can see that she's...
1470
01:33:17,940 --> 01:33:19,419
She's totally broken.
1471
01:33:24,033 --> 01:33:25,251
And here I am...
1472
01:33:27,645 --> 01:33:28,994
talking with you.
1473
01:33:32,432 --> 01:33:34,086
Giving a fuck about you.
1474
01:33:37,568 --> 01:33:40,876
Exactly because you have
those two little girls at home
1475
01:33:41,050 --> 01:33:42,617
who need more than anything
1476
01:33:42,791 --> 01:33:45,837
for their father to take
responsibility for his life...
1477
01:33:47,839 --> 01:33:49,101
for his disease.
1478
01:33:51,277 --> 01:33:54,150
And outside of them,
because you deserve it, Brandon.
1479
01:33:54,324 --> 01:33:55,412
Life's been shitty.
1480
01:33:57,153 --> 01:33:59,982
And here's a newsflash.
It's gonna keep on being shitty.
1481
01:34:02,898 --> 01:34:06,031
And you're right. It is just you
out there, like it's just me.
1482
01:34:08,773 --> 01:34:11,123
But it takes this.
1483
01:34:11,297 --> 01:34:14,866
Man, it takes this
to help us figure our shit out
1484
01:34:15,040 --> 01:34:16,999
and to remember
that life can also be
1485
01:34:17,173 --> 01:34:19,436
pretty fucking incredible
sometimes.
1486
01:34:19,610 --> 01:34:22,352
Love yourself, bro.
Nobody else can do that.
1487
01:34:23,614 --> 01:34:25,050
And either show up here
1488
01:34:25,224 --> 01:34:27,749
and do the work
and stop blaming everybody else,
1489
01:34:27,923 --> 01:34:29,925
or give this bed to somebody
who gives a fuck,
1490
01:34:30,099 --> 01:34:32,144
because me and Tess
and Slater and Duke
1491
01:34:32,318 --> 01:34:34,277
will give you everything
that we got.
1492
01:34:36,845 --> 01:34:39,804
But you've gotta want it, man.
You gotta want it.
1493
01:34:39,978 --> 01:34:41,197
More than anything.
1494
01:34:41,371 --> 01:34:43,460
I do want it.
I want it so badly.
1495
01:34:43,634 --> 01:34:45,114
I just don't know how.
1496
01:34:49,422 --> 01:34:51,250
I don't know how.
1497
01:34:56,952 --> 01:34:58,605
Take a minute
to gather yourself.
1498
01:35:02,392 --> 01:35:04,220
Come back out
and join the group.
1499
01:35:12,445 --> 01:35:13,490
Coop.
1500
01:35:19,496 --> 01:35:21,672
Just think about
what you wanna write about.
1501
01:35:29,201 --> 01:35:30,420
Okay.
1502
01:35:32,944 --> 01:35:35,251
- Sorry about that, guys.
- It's okay.
1503
01:35:35,425 --> 01:35:39,908
It's all good. But it shouldn't
have happened, so I apologize.
1504
01:35:54,139 --> 01:35:55,314
Thanks, dude.
1505
01:36:12,636 --> 01:36:13,942
I'm just...
1506
01:36:23,212 --> 01:36:25,214
I'm really sorry about that.
1507
01:36:31,698 --> 01:36:33,135
I'm sorry too.
1508
01:36:38,357 --> 01:36:41,970
Just so you know, I don't really
think you suck at fashion.
1509
01:36:45,669 --> 01:36:46,888
Thanks, dude.
1510
01:36:48,977 --> 01:36:50,065
Thank you.
1511
01:36:58,421 --> 01:37:00,597
All right. Show's over.
1512
01:37:00,771 --> 01:37:02,294
Fifteen minutes, guys.
1513
01:37:32,672 --> 01:37:35,240
You don't wanna marry me?
You?! Get out of here!
1514
01:37:35,414 --> 01:37:37,982
Get out! Get away from me!
1515
01:37:38,156 --> 01:37:40,724
Chris! Get away from me!
Chris! Chris!
1516
01:37:50,429 --> 01:37:51,387
You okay?
1517
01:37:53,476 --> 01:37:54,390
Yep.
1518
01:38:00,222 --> 01:38:01,397
Okay.
1519
01:38:24,724 --> 01:38:25,900
What's up, baby?
1520
01:38:28,903 --> 01:38:29,947
Um...
1521
01:38:31,470 --> 01:38:33,298
It's not your fault.
1522
01:38:33,472 --> 01:38:34,952
And I need you to know that.
1523
01:38:37,868 --> 01:38:38,869
Huh?
1524
01:38:41,263 --> 01:38:43,134
What are we talking about
right now?
1525
01:38:45,528 --> 01:38:47,399
I feel really clear about this.
1526
01:38:51,969 --> 01:38:56,234
Wait, just--Let's--
Let's... go back for a second.
1527
01:38:56,408 --> 01:38:59,542
- Can I say what I need to say?
- Okay. Yeah.
1528
01:39:03,676 --> 01:39:07,245
Um, over the last few weeks,
I've...
1529
01:39:07,419 --> 01:39:11,249
felt my body change, and I've...
1530
01:39:11,423 --> 01:39:13,686
I felt life grow inside of me,
1531
01:39:13,860 --> 01:39:16,298
and it made me realize
that, um...
1532
01:39:19,214 --> 01:39:20,476
I don't wanna wait.
1533
01:39:22,260 --> 01:39:24,741
I don't wanna wait.
I don't wanna freeze my eggs.
1534
01:39:24,915 --> 01:39:26,917
I don't want to--
I just, I wanna, um...
1535
01:39:29,441 --> 01:39:32,270
I wanna have a baby, Cooper.
And I wanna do that soon.
1536
01:39:36,361 --> 01:39:39,321
And I can't stay with someone
who I did this with.
1537
01:39:42,802 --> 01:39:44,717
And you didn't
do anything wrong.
1538
01:39:44,891 --> 01:39:48,069
You didn't do anything wrong.
You told me...
1539
01:39:48,243 --> 01:39:51,333
how you felt, and you were clear
the whole time, and...
1540
01:39:51,507 --> 01:39:53,552
I just--I feel differently now.
1541
01:39:56,251 --> 01:39:57,165
Okay?
1542
01:40:00,081 --> 01:40:01,908
I don't--I don't understand.
1543
01:40:07,871 --> 01:40:10,308
- We've gotten through so much.
- Mm-hm.
1544
01:40:11,527 --> 01:40:13,224
And now we're at the end of it.
1545
01:40:15,705 --> 01:40:17,054
I'm feeling better.
1546
01:40:24,235 --> 01:40:26,020
Don't give up. Wha--?
1547
01:40:27,630 --> 01:40:28,979
No, listen--
1548
01:40:29,153 --> 01:40:31,286
We can work--
We can work through this.
1549
01:40:31,460 --> 01:40:33,592
- I don't think we can.
- Let's just talk about it.
1550
01:40:33,766 --> 01:40:36,291
I can't. It's not about
communication, Cooper. I...
1551
01:40:36,465 --> 01:40:38,815
I have to leave.
I have to leave.
1552
01:40:38,989 --> 01:40:41,731
I've been here my whole life,
and you have to stay here.
1553
01:40:41,905 --> 01:40:44,777
It's where your dreams are,
and I understand that.
1554
01:40:44,951 --> 01:40:47,954
But I have to go.
And I've been sacrificing that.
1555
01:40:48,129 --> 01:40:50,348
But I have to go and...
1556
01:40:50,522 --> 01:40:54,004
And find something beautiful.
I just have to be free, okay?
1557
01:40:54,178 --> 01:40:58,878
So I'm gonna go and I'm gonna be
at my mom's, just so you know.
1558
01:40:59,053 --> 01:41:02,447
Hold on, hold on, hold on.
Hold on for a second. Hold on.
1559
01:41:05,233 --> 01:41:07,887
Please don't do this.
Please don't do this.
1560
01:41:08,975 --> 01:41:10,368
Please don't do this.
1561
01:41:10,542 --> 01:41:11,717
Cooper, I have to.
1562
01:41:13,502 --> 01:41:16,592
- Okay, I have to go.
- Let's just talk about it.
1563
01:41:18,159 --> 01:41:20,204
Cooper. Look at me. Look at me.
1564
01:41:20,378 --> 01:41:21,640
This is the hardest decision
1565
01:41:21,814 --> 01:41:23,860
I've ever had to make
in my life, okay?
1566
01:41:26,384 --> 01:41:27,733
So I have to go.
1567
01:41:30,519 --> 01:41:33,478
- Don't go. Please don't go.
- I'll be at my mom's. Okay?
1568
01:41:34,958 --> 01:41:38,048
- Okay.
- I'll see you. I'll--
1569
01:41:39,789 --> 01:41:41,095
I'll just come there.
1570
01:42:31,754 --> 01:42:34,148
Hey, Nora. It's Cooper.
Call me as soon as you can.
1571
01:42:34,322 --> 01:42:36,585
Hi, Nora. It's Cooper.
I need you to call me back.
1572
01:42:36,759 --> 01:42:39,675
Hi, Nora. This is Cooper.
I'm trying to get ahold of you.
1573
01:42:39,849 --> 01:42:42,243
I, um, really need
to talk to somebody.
1574
01:42:42,417 --> 01:42:44,375
Hi, Nora.
Call me back as soon as you can.
1575
01:42:44,549 --> 01:42:46,421
It's an emergency, okay? Bye.
1576
01:43:59,842 --> 01:44:01,452
How are you doing with all that?
1577
01:44:01,626 --> 01:44:04,063
I understand how she feels.
1578
01:44:06,718 --> 01:44:09,025
And if I'm honest,
I could feel it too.
1579
01:44:09,199 --> 01:44:10,548
That's the thing, bro.
1580
01:44:10,722 --> 01:44:12,289
I mean, just because
you're doing better
1581
01:44:12,463 --> 01:44:13,856
doesn't mean she is.
1582
01:44:14,030 --> 01:44:15,945
She was probably putting off
her own needs
1583
01:44:16,119 --> 01:44:17,903
for a very long time.
1584
01:44:18,077 --> 01:44:19,557
That's what really gets me.
1585
01:44:21,124 --> 01:44:22,473
I just wasn't ready.
1586
01:44:22,647 --> 01:44:24,258
Clearly, she wasn't either.
1587
01:44:24,432 --> 01:44:27,304
That's true. Not something
to beat yourself up about.
1588
01:44:27,478 --> 01:44:29,263
She's just so shut down now.
1589
01:44:29,437 --> 01:44:32,309
Everything is like, "I'm sorry,
Cooper. I hear you, Cooper."
1590
01:44:32,483 --> 01:44:33,919
Heard my name more
in the last weeks
1591
01:44:34,093 --> 01:44:35,921
than in the eight years
we were together.
1592
01:44:36,095 --> 01:44:38,707
- So you guys are still talking?
- Just logistics at this point.
1593
01:44:38,881 --> 01:44:41,231
Um, she still has some stuff
she needs to move out,
1594
01:44:41,405 --> 01:44:44,103
then we'll break off contact.
I know it's not healthy.
1595
01:44:44,278 --> 01:44:46,236
I'm sorry, Cooper.
1596
01:44:46,410 --> 01:44:49,718
You just never get
that chance again, you know,
1597
01:44:49,892 --> 01:44:52,198
to have your first big love
make it the distance.
1598
01:44:52,373 --> 01:44:57,682
Hey, hey, hey. Key word
is "first" big love, right?
1599
01:44:57,856 --> 01:45:00,076
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
1600
01:45:00,250 --> 01:45:02,121
Um...
1601
01:45:02,296 --> 01:45:03,558
Uh, in brighter news,
1602
01:45:03,732 --> 01:45:05,516
I booked a screenwriting job.
1603
01:45:05,690 --> 01:45:08,954
It's for a feature. I found out
this week. Yeah, yeah.
1604
01:45:09,128 --> 01:45:11,348
I let work know
I'm gonna take some time off.
1605
01:45:11,522 --> 01:45:13,045
I'm gonna take my laptop
and travel.
1606
01:45:13,219 --> 01:45:14,482
I just booked my tickets.
1607
01:45:14,656 --> 01:45:16,048
Three months in South America.
1608
01:45:16,222 --> 01:45:18,747
Buenos Aires, Rio.
1609
01:45:18,921 --> 01:45:22,664
- When do you take off?
- Next week.
1610
01:45:22,838 --> 01:45:24,840
Yeah. He told me last week
he was leaving.
1611
01:45:26,276 --> 01:45:28,278
So this is it, guys.
1612
01:45:29,497 --> 01:45:32,717
Time to cut the cord.
1613
01:45:32,891 --> 01:45:34,763
You all have
such beautiful, open minds.
1614
01:45:34,937 --> 01:45:38,070
And I don't know where I would
be without all your support.
1615
01:45:38,244 --> 01:45:40,377
Oh, man. Right back at you, bro.
1616
01:45:48,646 --> 01:45:50,692
Ahem. Thank you.
1617
01:45:50,866 --> 01:45:52,302
I really appreciate it, Cooper.
1618
01:45:57,351 --> 01:45:58,395
What?
1619
01:46:01,267 --> 01:46:03,618
It was no problem.
I was on my way to the rehab.
1620
01:46:03,792 --> 01:46:07,796
Oh, congratulations on the--
On the writing job.
1621
01:46:07,970 --> 01:46:10,233
You really--
You deserve it, Cooper.
1622
01:46:10,407 --> 01:46:11,843
Yeah, thanks.
1623
01:46:12,017 --> 01:46:13,105
You too.
1624
01:46:14,498 --> 01:46:16,239
Tess told me
that you sold a song
1625
01:46:16,413 --> 01:46:17,893
to that indie band.
1626
01:46:21,157 --> 01:46:22,985
I don't want it
to be like this.
1627
01:46:23,159 --> 01:46:24,987
- Like what?
- Like awkward.
1628
01:46:25,161 --> 01:46:27,381
I didn't want--
And I don't want to fight or--
1629
01:46:27,555 --> 01:46:30,122
Neither do I, but I--
1630
01:46:30,296 --> 01:46:31,776
I can't just be friends.
1631
01:46:34,736 --> 01:46:35,780
Because we're not.
1632
01:46:38,696 --> 01:46:40,263
I can't live that lie.
1633
01:46:46,182 --> 01:46:47,096
What?
1634
01:46:49,228 --> 01:46:50,316
Nothing.
1635
01:46:55,278 --> 01:46:56,279
Bye, babe.
1636
01:46:59,978 --> 01:47:01,197
Bye.
1637
01:47:03,895 --> 01:47:04,766
Cooper.
1638
01:47:08,334 --> 01:47:09,945
He'd want you to have this.
1639
01:47:15,037 --> 01:47:16,081
Thanks, J.
1640
01:47:17,474 --> 01:47:18,649
Uh...
1641
01:47:21,304 --> 01:47:25,047
- Listen, I--You know?
- I know. Me too.
1642
01:47:29,399 --> 01:47:31,357
- Take care of yourself.
- I will.
1643
01:47:32,010 --> 01:47:33,011
Good.
1644
01:47:34,143 --> 01:47:35,144
Thanks for everything.
1645
01:47:35,840 --> 01:47:36,885
You too.
1646
01:47:39,409 --> 01:47:40,454
There he is.
1647
01:47:40,628 --> 01:47:42,673
- Johnny Hollywood, baby.
- Whoa!
1648
01:47:42,847 --> 01:47:44,675
Hey, what can I say?
I'm a badass.
1649
01:47:44,849 --> 01:47:46,808
Yeah, you are. Congrats, dude.
1650
01:47:46,982 --> 01:47:48,549
Thanks, Tess.
1651
01:47:48,723 --> 01:47:50,638
Off to stuff
those Brazilian babes.
1652
01:47:50,812 --> 01:47:52,553
- Oh!
- Ahh!
1653
01:47:52,727 --> 01:47:54,076
Come on.
1654
01:47:54,250 --> 01:47:56,252
I don't know
if I'm quite there yet, up here.
1655
01:47:56,426 --> 01:47:58,210
But, you know, I'll--
I don't know.
1656
01:48:01,039 --> 01:48:03,259
Oh!
Are you ready?
1657
01:48:03,433 --> 01:48:05,174
All the clients
are in the living room.
1658
01:48:05,348 --> 01:48:07,089
I am. That's what I'm here for.
1659
01:48:07,263 --> 01:48:10,701
Potential. That word
says everything, brother.
1660
01:48:11,659 --> 01:48:13,748
You're gonna get out
exactly what you put in.
1661
01:48:14,792 --> 01:48:16,664
You had some breakthroughs here
towards the end.
1662
01:48:17,447 --> 01:48:19,362
Got a long way to go, but I...
1663
01:48:20,406 --> 01:48:21,930
I believe in you.
1664
01:48:23,322 --> 01:48:25,499
I believe
you're gonna get there.
1665
01:48:25,673 --> 01:48:28,023
Just don't give up.
Don't ever give up.
1666
01:48:29,633 --> 01:48:31,330
And don't be
such a little asshole anymore.
1667
01:48:33,202 --> 01:48:34,290
Okay?
1668
01:48:45,736 --> 01:48:46,911
But seriously, bro.
1669
01:48:48,434 --> 01:48:50,959
We're here for you.
Reach out anytime.
1670
01:49:01,709 --> 01:49:04,450
- I don't wanna talk to you.
- Yeah, you do.
1671
01:49:09,586 --> 01:49:11,457
What am I supposed to do now?
1672
01:49:11,632 --> 01:49:13,547
Exactly what you've been doing.
1673
01:49:13,721 --> 01:49:17,246
Building good habits.
Trust yourself.
1674
01:49:17,420 --> 01:49:20,510
I can't do this alone, dude.
1675
01:49:20,684 --> 01:49:22,773
I was never
always gonna be here.
1676
01:49:22,947 --> 01:49:24,558
You know it's not like that.
1677
01:49:24,732 --> 01:49:27,778
Yeah, but I thought you'd
at least be here until I left.
1678
01:49:27,952 --> 01:49:29,475
You're stronger
than you think you are.
1679
01:49:29,650 --> 01:49:31,652
It's not about that.
1680
01:49:31,826 --> 01:49:33,567
It's about the fact
that I gave in
1681
01:49:33,741 --> 01:49:35,177
and I did what you asked,
1682
01:49:35,351 --> 01:49:37,353
and now you're leaving.
1683
01:49:37,527 --> 01:49:39,529
You can always reach out.
1684
01:49:39,703 --> 01:49:43,533
My dad's not talking to me.
All my friends are fuckups.
1685
01:49:45,796 --> 01:49:47,276
I still need you, man.
1686
01:49:53,195 --> 01:49:55,197
You're just
another fucking letdown.
1687
01:49:57,373 --> 01:49:58,330
That's not fair.
1688
01:49:58,504 --> 01:50:00,594
Fuck fair. Whatever.
1689
01:50:02,508 --> 01:50:04,554
I'm sorry. I can't do this.
1690
01:50:21,615 --> 01:50:23,138
Left my spare key
in the desk drawer
1691
01:50:23,312 --> 01:50:24,835
- if you need to move it.
- Cool.
1692
01:50:25,009 --> 01:50:27,316
Um, this is for Rachel.
1693
01:50:27,490 --> 01:50:29,187
I knew she wasn't gonna take it.
1694
01:50:29,361 --> 01:50:32,451
Oh, um, I left a curling iron
on my desk as well.
1695
01:50:32,626 --> 01:50:35,063
It's Em's. If you could give it
to her, if you see her.
1696
01:50:35,237 --> 01:50:38,066
- Sure, if I see her in time.
- What do you mean?
1697
01:50:38,240 --> 01:50:42,070
- Oh, shit. She didn't tell you.
- Tell me what?
1698
01:50:42,244 --> 01:50:44,246
She's moving to Paris next week.
1699
01:50:46,988 --> 01:50:47,902
I'm sorry.
1700
01:50:51,253 --> 01:50:52,297
That's okay.
1701
01:50:53,516 --> 01:50:54,430
I'm not surprised.
1702
01:50:54,604 --> 01:50:56,127
Just a little thrown off.
1703
01:51:01,611 --> 01:51:04,005
- Bye.
- Bye, Coop. Have a great trip.
1704
01:51:11,621 --> 01:51:13,884
- LAX, right?
- Yeah.
1705
01:51:25,504 --> 01:51:26,767
Bye!
1706
01:51:28,682 --> 01:51:30,161
Bye, Cooper!
1707
01:51:44,741 --> 01:51:47,004
- What is this?
- He didn't tell me.
1708
01:51:59,756 --> 01:52:03,281
It's my letter of recommendation
for my application.
1709
01:52:03,455 --> 01:52:04,500
I see.
1710
01:52:06,589 --> 01:52:10,462
- Should I read it right now?
- If you want. It's up to you.
1711
01:52:14,553 --> 01:52:17,556
"Dear Admissions Committee,
1712
01:52:17,731 --> 01:52:20,168
I had the pleasure
of meeting Rachel
1713
01:52:20,342 --> 01:52:22,387
as her rehabilitation counselor.
1714
01:52:24,520 --> 01:52:26,348
I can say unequivocally
1715
01:52:26,522 --> 01:52:28,567
that Rachel is one of the most
promising people I've ever met.
1716
01:52:30,744 --> 01:52:33,007
Emphasis on 'people,'
not 'client.'
1717
01:52:36,097 --> 01:52:39,274
I could be writing this letter
from the perspective
1718
01:52:39,448 --> 01:52:41,015
of how much I gave to her
1719
01:52:41,189 --> 01:52:43,800
and how much she learned
during her time here.
1720
01:52:43,974 --> 01:52:46,063
But the truth is
that she gave more to me
1721
01:52:46,237 --> 01:52:47,456
than she received.
1722
01:52:52,330 --> 01:52:54,942
Her ability to flourish
in the face of crisis
1723
01:52:55,116 --> 01:52:56,421
has been incredible.
1724
01:52:58,336 --> 01:53:00,164
How fearless she's become.
1725
01:53:05,822 --> 01:53:08,651
I believe vulnerability
is the greatest form of courage.
1726
01:53:10,305 --> 01:53:12,568
And Rachel's exhibited
nothing but that.
1727
01:53:14,352 --> 01:53:15,963
Courage of the highest degree.
1728
01:53:19,531 --> 01:53:23,448
She had the courage at 18
to face her darkest hour.
1729
01:53:25,276 --> 01:53:27,539
To come to L.A.
and seek treatment
1730
01:53:27,713 --> 01:53:30,107
for a disease
that no longer defines her.
1731
01:53:32,240 --> 01:53:35,504
To face the backlash
from her friends and family
1732
01:53:35,678 --> 01:53:36,897
and pursue this application.
1733
01:53:37,071 --> 01:53:38,812
It's an inspiration to witness.
1734
01:53:42,946 --> 01:53:44,339
I don't personally know
1735
01:53:44,513 --> 01:53:47,429
the first thing
about high fashion,
1736
01:53:47,603 --> 01:53:52,129
but I do know through Rachel now
1737
01:53:52,303 --> 01:53:53,696
that you can't hold
someone back
1738
01:53:53,870 --> 01:53:56,786
who's conquered their own mind.
1739
01:53:56,960 --> 01:53:59,310
And for that,
I'll remain forever indebted.
1740
01:54:04,011 --> 01:54:06,230
All of us need the help
of other people.
1741
01:54:08,406 --> 01:54:11,627
Give this young woman a chance,
I beg of you.
1742
01:54:11,801 --> 01:54:14,499
I can think of no one more
deserving of your education.
1743
01:54:14,673 --> 01:54:16,545
Sincerely, Cooper Ganz."
1744
01:54:43,311 --> 01:54:46,096
Oh, my God, I got in. I got in!
1745
01:54:46,270 --> 01:54:48,925
Wait, wait! No way!
1746
01:54:49,099 --> 01:54:50,666
Would you mind
turning up this song?
1747
01:54:53,016 --> 01:54:54,844
Yes!
1748
01:54:55,018 --> 01:54:57,281
♪ Love me like a fire ♪
1749
01:54:57,455 --> 01:55:00,110
♪ And I'll love you
Like a flood ♪
1750
01:55:00,284 --> 01:55:02,852
♪ I'll give you
Everything I am ♪
1751
01:55:03,026 --> 01:55:05,942
♪ Down to the vapors
In my blood ♪
1752
01:55:06,116 --> 01:55:11,600
♪ I'll be your broken levee
If you will be my drug ♪
1753
01:55:11,774 --> 01:55:14,168
♪ Love me like a fire, girl ♪
1754
01:55:14,342 --> 01:55:17,040
♪ And I'll love you
Like a flood ♪
1755
01:55:17,214 --> 01:55:19,564
♪ Love me like an anchor ♪
1756
01:55:19,738 --> 01:55:22,306
♪ And I'll love you
Like a rock ♪
1757
01:55:22,480 --> 01:55:25,092
♪ I'll give you
Everything I have ♪
1758
01:55:25,266 --> 01:55:28,182
♪ Even the things
I haven't got ♪
1759
01:55:28,356 --> 01:55:30,706
♪ I'll tell you
That I love you ♪
1760
01:55:30,880 --> 01:55:33,796
♪ When you're worried
That I'll stop ♪
1761
01:55:33,970 --> 01:55:36,277
♪ Love me
Like an anchor, girl ♪
1762
01:55:36,451 --> 01:55:38,409
♪ And I'll love you
Like a rock ♪
1763
01:55:38,583 --> 01:55:43,675
♪ Come on now and love me ♪
1764
01:55:43,849 --> 01:55:49,246
♪ I need you to love me ♪
1765
01:55:49,420 --> 01:55:50,465
♪ Come on, baby ♪
1766
01:55:50,639 --> 01:55:56,950
♪ And love me ♪
1767
01:56:01,780 --> 01:56:03,913
♪ Love me like an altar ♪
1768
01:56:04,087 --> 01:56:06,698
♪ And I'll love you
Like a church ♪
1769
01:56:06,872 --> 01:56:09,571
♪ I'll give you
Everything I can ♪
1770
01:56:09,745 --> 01:56:12,704
♪ Through the good times
And the worst ♪
1771
01:56:12,878 --> 01:56:14,793
♪ I'll tell you
I've never done things ♪
1772
01:56:14,968 --> 01:56:18,232
♪ When I can see
You want to be the first ♪
1773
01:56:18,406 --> 01:56:20,669
♪ Love me like an altar, girl ♪
1774
01:56:20,843 --> 01:56:23,802
♪ And I'll love you
Like a church ♪
1775
01:56:23,977 --> 01:56:26,240
♪ Love me like a seraph ♪
1776
01:56:26,414 --> 01:56:28,982
♪ And I'll love you
Like a saint ♪
1777
01:56:29,156 --> 01:56:31,767
♪ I'll give you
Everything you need ♪
1778
01:56:31,941 --> 01:56:34,639
♪ And I'll never need
To be thanked ♪
1779
01:56:34,813 --> 01:56:37,251
♪ Just promise
You'll remind me ♪
1780
01:56:37,425 --> 01:56:40,080
♪ When we're old
And my mind goes blank ♪
1781
01:56:40,254 --> 01:56:42,908
♪ That you loved me
Like a seraph, girl ♪
1782
01:56:43,083 --> 01:56:45,215
♪ And I loved you
Like a saint ♪
1783
01:56:45,389 --> 01:56:50,264
♪ Come on now and love me ♪
1784
01:56:50,438 --> 01:56:55,834
♪ I need you to love me ♪
1785
01:56:56,009 --> 01:56:57,314
♪ Come on, baby ♪
1786
01:56:57,488 --> 01:57:03,799
♪ And love me ♪
1787
01:57:08,456 --> 01:57:10,545
♪ Love me like a monkey ♪
1788
01:57:10,719 --> 01:57:13,330
♪ And I'll love you
Like a vine ♪
1789
01:57:13,504 --> 01:57:16,159
♪ I'll give you
Everything I have ♪
1790
01:57:16,333 --> 01:57:19,293
♪ If you'll let me
Call you mine ♪
1791
01:57:19,467 --> 01:57:21,338
♪ I'll put you
On my shoulders ♪
1792
01:57:21,512 --> 01:57:24,863
♪ Up all the mountains
That we'll climb ♪
1793
01:57:25,038 --> 01:57:27,301
♪ Love me like a monkey, girl ♪
1794
01:57:27,475 --> 01:57:29,607
♪ And I'll love you
Like a vine ♪
1795
01:57:29,781 --> 01:57:34,612
♪ Come on now and love me ♪
1796
01:57:34,786 --> 01:57:40,183
♪ I need you to love me ♪
1797
01:57:40,357 --> 01:57:41,619
♪ Come on, baby ♪
1798
01:57:41,793 --> 01:57:48,061
♪ And love me ♪
1799
01:57:50,150 --> 01:57:56,852
♪ Come on, baby
I need you to love me ♪
1800
01:57:57,026 --> 01:58:02,379
♪ I need you to love me ♪
1801
01:58:02,553 --> 01:58:03,902
♪ Come on, baby ♪
1802
01:58:04,077 --> 01:58:10,039
♪ And love me ♪